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y muz it b dis way?
y m i always complaining bout clarinets ppl?? ok la. hu else. but its jh n ade always~ -____- both r so similar lor. wad the heck. always say redundant stuff. n hey. i'm pissed bout today lor i dun even noe wad i do k. i dun see anithing wrong wif me saying tt to her? juz 3 words den she pissed. at 1st dunno she fake one anot...went over other table n sit..nvm...i was like.. trying to appease her..she dun gif a damn. okok. play play rite..nvm...den in toilet..i was there den she went in....fuck her la. i was there jiehui..dun liddat la..i keep repeating k...wah lau. act like i did smthing so wrong liddat. pls lor. n she juz ignore me all e way. wad the heck. i'm now the baichi. den all the way..dun need to say. its still the same. n PLSSSSSSS LOR. i dun even tink i said anithing wrong at all. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFff. arrgh. i'm so pissed k. since when got ppl throw temper at me one? gif her face one k. den on the bus. ya ya. i noe name uh. wad "sit beside u tt woman" wad the heck. go n die la. clarinet sux big time. i had enough le. i can jolly well dun care bout her right from when she move to another table. n i was acting like a baichiiiiii. daMn her. cLarIneT sUx cLarInET sUx clarinET sUX. ok lah... dey r ur partmates. den i always pissed by smone i wana siam off quickly den u r always still wif dem...arrgh...no choice. can't possibly go up to u say ignore dem rite. ur gd frenz wad....den wad. still say wad squad bowling. aiyar. wadeva i do i aso dun wana see clarinet ppl face. all sux. all sux. 1st ade den jh. enough is enough. dis is not the 1st time le lor. den everitime jh buaysong the guyz will go n ask wad happen..wad happen. wah. so great. den juz now u still kinda "wait" for eesuan they all...i was already fuming inside le lor coz tt farking jh there still gif me tt face. so i walk fast fast la..aha.budden i dunno u is catching up wif me or dey waiting for smbody den u go 1st...den when we get off keep hearing their voice..so u shud noe how irritated i m la. ok la. u can say i sick or wad. nth much to piss bout...but its juz accumulated den realli wad. u noe dem.. u noe wad's so pissifying. juz tt u can ren. n u muz coz dey ur partmate. but i'm not RELATED to dem. so i heck. ya..den u all walk so fast sia... in e end i haf to walk even faster to b in front of u all w/o hearing ur voice... its not juz today pissed onli lor. its.....everitime aso liddat one... k la..u more time spent wif dem...u can ren. erhem. i not so nice like u. i dun like means dun like. dun see e pt of qian jiu tt person. haha. kk. tt's bout all bout clarinet sux...OPPs. u r in clarinets. whahaaa
Fcuk
the reason is stupid.
she juz dun wan sec 3 to take charge. den she wan to stay..
den she wan the whole squad to stay wif her.everitime she say till like she's doing the gd for everione...
arrgh. i ren veri long liew k
sat aso. ok lah. instru drop ya veri poor thing...i noe tt.. buden after tt mr ng nv even scold her??? last time yz onli drop wif case lor. mr ng scream the hell of out her leh. i mean so biased? wad the heck. ok. dun say biase anot. budden mr ng din even scold her leh?? n after tt she still like act so pathetic. nvm. u sad rite... n WHY R U SO HAPPY THE MOMENT u'r out of sch? always liddat one lor. cry 1st b4 anithing.
den dun like jh. dun like es. behind their back say dey sux.
n den? wah. so close wif dem? wah lau. gd frenz lor. can she stop being such an idiot not?
ARRGGGH!
n she's becoming like ch?? like wad happen last time lor. totalli same cycle.sux. cry cry b4 anithing happens. in trouble totalli tok diff side of story. i had e taste of it b4 le lorz OBX! u've got mMEEEE into deep shit once n i wun forget it. nv! yesh. u r so sucky. if not for u'r in my section. u'll b in my hate list following g, bitch, duck, fatty....gif u face? dun wan b so bad afterall. coz realli. normal u r fine. but when something eva happens u suc. yes u do. dun even understand y u fit to b in C. DUN UNDERSTAND. not i jealous. but.....arrgh. such a sucky character. all u noe is act pathetic. playing not tt gd either. all u noe is kb bout other gd players? sigh...i noe i'm mean ba. but. i'm realli push against my nerves. i've nv had so much grumbles bout a person b4....so u shud gess how much u did to irritate me to dis extend.
hey silly ger.
dun u get the whole pic now dumby..hehe.. u act so baichi in front of me tt i can't help but scold u coz i'm so irritated! whahaa. so if u dun baichi . i dun scold. hahaha . settled~ chopped. act. i tink its quite unfair lorz.coz ade in com ma..den tt day drop instru although abit damaged but mr ng not so pissed. if tt was smone else leh? haiz. den she was one hand crying. after tt go mac so noisy. yes lor. she's everi moment kb-ing bout ppl....den tt day during sp she was acting so pro lidat...toking to dom bout the bass n alto issue...she keep insisting tt mr ng wun put the lanner ones in alto bass..coz she's in?? she keep saying is equal chance one..den caroline not guaranteed in Bb...coz she not so gd afterall...den whole day complain ppl play so lan..when she..haiz. nvm... i'm not tt gd aso..so i wun say much..waah. den i juz get so pms bcoz is everithing u complain bout ur clar peers..den yet always u pao qi me n hang out wif dem. veri dotdotdot u noe? my heart piang piang piang..sobz..ltr i go commit suicide den u noe sia. hahahaz...ya lor. n now so mani ppl complain say i not model squad leader liew. my hair n bag..wah lau..onli when the thing gets serious..dey notice all dis lorz.. tt time i say so so so mani times tt that janice dun even tuck in her shirt nobody care lorz. n now mrs wong say liew...everibody so gan jiong liew..blah blah...ok la. ade is always so "he2 ge2" den she can kb ppl..budden her attitude juz suc at times lor...n tt jan..bu jian de she now aso veri "he2 ge2" rite?? wth...aiyar. next time i dun bring bag liew la. ahhaaha...arrgh. thou dis is nth related to me..i still muz complain. haahaha. i kpo kia one...tt jh..y always liddat one? last min dun wan go concert. not the 1st time liew...den she always aso say dun fit in the guyz grp still always hang out wif dem..wad's e meaning?? hmprh....u ah. haha. i dunno wad to say le la..i tink dis time we say everithing out is the best liew..at least i noe wad's happening n u noe wad's happening n we wun get pissed up animore..yeah...so next time we bu shuang each other we juz kb here la. k.? whahaaa. tt's so lame.....kk...happy pooling.
i suc
i cried? i feel so useless...i'm e realli pessimistic kind...felt quite bad to make pam ly so worried..yc aso got send me sms to ask me cheer up..but nvm. he dunno wad's going on..so far onli pam noes ba? n u.... was rather happy to hear from ly...the feeling is so nice to hear from him tt he's worried bout me..from his mouth...n wanted to call me to see if i'm alright. but i din wana wake my parents so i din agree the tok over e fone...haiz..but even after toking wif pam.. i din feel ani beta at all?? ly dunno wad i'm upset bout either.....haiz....juz when i thot i onli treat hc as a big bro..here he appears again. always liddat one. wheneva i try to forget someone so zun tt person will pop out the next moment....n i realise.. i dun tink is e feeling of a big bro so ez afterall.....? i feel i feel more den tt for him....
n yet there's ly. so i feel i'm a bitch. a bitch! onli a bitch is so indecisive n like 2 person at e same time. haiz.. i suc....can god tell me wad shud i do....? haiz. i'm realli troubled. not tt i purposely wana tink bout it. but.. i juz can't help it..
to u~
hai. at 1st wanted to call u..but..juz can't pick up the fone la. i dunno how to say.... but i juz wana tok.... haiz...as u noe.i'm rather upset recently...act is coz of those guyz la. ya..but part of dem still belongs to my family...coz of probs again...n...i juz dunno how to say..but..my temper isn't tt gd since eva...yet at dis period.. i juz get rather pissed wif some things u did...sometimes is more of upset...i dunno aso..sometimes u r juz ok lor. most of e time is when there's onli me n u... we cud tok anithing under e sun...but sometimes u juz get on ppl's nerve wif ur speeches la..maybe u dun realise tt...or maybe i'm too sensitive...budden there r aso instances got ppl was offended by ur words smtimes..for example is like.u always purposely oppose wadeva i say one lorz. i mean..one or two times nvm..joking joking.budden. dun u tink u r getting too much?? is like..maybe all dis r juz so normal..to u r like some jokes or smthing..but u r juz doing all dis too frequent le lorz. like acting blur n stuff...using tt kinda tone...juz kinda..i can't stand? i dunno...haiz...den if not is.. when there's onli both of us..we'll tok bout ppl we can't stand..or complain bout stuff....k la..so there's ur clar section ppl u r at times unhappy bout...n here...sometimes when u r wif dem. u juz totalli ignore my presence as if i'm transparent?? maybe u nv realise la..but..it has been happening quite a few times le.. if not u will b like a totalli diff person again...opposing wadeva i say..not tt i'm petty or wad..but..u r juz doing tt so often le...it juz isn't farnie animore..it juz get so..out of hand...abit too much ba..this kinda thing regarding jh es ade..happen juz too mani times le..if u remember..den gd lor..if not..juz forget it..but... i can state 2 instances la..like tt SE concert...at 1st me kitty char were discussing whether to go se concert...den dey ask me ask u go aso ma. so i ask u...n all u did was juz. wah lau. go for wad. waste $ waste time n stuff. juz rite smack in my face....k la. not tt i disagree wif u. so dun go lor. n now. i duno wad la. u den suddenly wana go se concert... n dis time u r so enthu..den u keep asking me go....u noe how the feeling is?? is like u nv even take my speeches seriously at all for once...?? wad i say i juz go in go out for u.... i dunno la..m i tinking too much.. i juz feel so..?! u keep saying some stupid comments bout y i dun wan go se concert..n den u juz go round asking ppl going wif u... i mean.. i ASK u long ago n tt's wad u reply..n now u..? haiz..maybe tt's y i dun feel like going at all.moreover...u r always treating me as dunno wad when u r wif someone....like opposing me wadeva i do or say liddat...since adeline go wif u..den i dun go lor...so..when i noe u es ade or hueva go together... i wasn't feeling tt gd la..budden...nah. i aso can't stop u from going aniwhere.....i'm not implying the idea u can't b wif others...i'm juz bringing forward tt....i hope u can change ur attitude towards me?? k la.. u can say i not so "big air" k? u can say anithing u wan..but i juz wana say..its no longer farnie when u say those stuff to me....like wheneva i ask or say anithing u say..u will juz go "you3 meh??" or "huh"...haiz..its juz..quite hurting...den today...in bandrm..u n yh juz decide on watching ju on..i mean. since u all decide le. wad can i say rite? so go lorz..since its earli...n u look so enthu....n hu noes..after fall in u juz siam off wif ur clar section ppl again. w/o even telling us anithing?? yh even call u so mani times den u r juz so bz engaging toking to ur clar ppl tt u din hear her..so we decide to wait for u at bus stop. we look like idiots?? 158 at tt time is so rare lorz. waited for more den 50 mins...n onli 3 buses pass...call u n stuff...u keep saying u coming out liew...n its like..coming out liew means 10mins?? den u come out u juz still so bz wif es dey all lor. can't u even say something...not directly a sorry la..but we waited for so long lorz...weather is hot? while u all toking in aircon staff room we r out there.....n u juz treat us transparent..ok maybe not both..u got tok to yh. but i was totally transparent to u.. can u feel how i feel? u din even wana watch e movie afterall...u nv even say... i mean i'm not angry wif u for toking to mr ng duh. but..can't u tell us b4hand..we will wait..but the pt is..we dunno anithing n we juz wait...wad if u decide to stay on or wadeva n stuff...wad makes us? idiots?? smmore is i ask yh call u den u say where was u....haiz. i dunno..i'm saying alot hor...sorri uh. i juz...can't hold it ani longer....n kitty advise me tok to u le....i juz hope dis can help...coz i noe if i hold ani longer i will one day juz scream at u like wad ade do to u tt day...but i dun wan to...coz not as if i'm hating u or wad.... i juz feel the "occasion barrier" or "character change" btw us n on u smtimes..so i hope dis can help....?? dunno how to say all dis in front of u...n most of the time...as i say u always oppose wad i say or do la..so is like...i ask u go here or do smthing..smtimes u will la..but smtimes u juz insist on ur way lor...in tt joking tone you mei you....? u dun wan u can explain nicely rite.. u like acting blur or smthing or wad...den it juz get on my nerves... but wheneva u wana do anithing..mmost of the time i juz do or pei u rite...did i eva like say sacarstic stuff or wad....haiz....still remember tt time got chi test rite..den u din wan to go down n eat....i was quite upset la..abit pissed?? ok la. tt one i can't force u go eat if u dun feel like it....but... can't u even go down wif me...?? haiz..nvm..den i come up..karen tell me she dun need the food..den i can eat..but i thot maybe u up there maybe hungry so i nv eat juz bring up...den u see those stuff u like dun even gif a damn or wad...u dun wan can say...den is like sometimes i dunno la..maybe u not in gd mood oso..u juz suddenly dun tok for quite some time one....i realli dunno wad to do at times...
haiz..once again..sorri......sorri?
confidential..
decide to update dis entry here..been so long since i eva get here..but if private stuff i tink i'll put here ba... hmmz...ya..suddenly been thinking alot of Ly..i've always been la..budden..eva since sat i saw him after half a yr..the feeling grew leaps n bounds...my heart is den reassured tt...the one i still like is still him..n not Hc. perhaps hc has always been like a big bro to me...caring n concerning wheneva i need...budden..maybe i misinterpreted everithing afterall... n i wonder y...y m i always revolving round band guyz? i mean there r others..like ys..gs...dan...wk...eug...mar...alv...arrgh. but eventualli when i settle down quietly to tink....the person coming to my mind wud be both of dem..howeva both gifs me 2 diff kinda feeling. but i juz can't diff n verify hu do i act. love.....i'm confused..i feel like toking to him ..but i haf no guts to msg him at all...i envy pam now...partly..coz she's got such a nice crush...i tink tt guy likes her one lorz..juz tt dun wana admit coz he's leaving...tt will make 2 person sad ..so juz keep secret ba...so nice..he's a sweet guy. yeah....haiz....
sigh
now trying to do another online journal... well..sch hols ending..hw almost done.. left goeg n elit.. hope can finish..man..feel like buy tt canon digital camera alot..haiz.. but sure cannot buy one.. 599 bucks.. so ex... buy tt mp3 player already kana nag so much... den aso wana buy hp... gd if can buy got cam one.. haiz..how nice if can get both things on my bday
life's bored..
The snobby girl
Which girl stereotype are you?
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ah yeah. rotting away my life. hahahaz..... well... got trick by tt cna news yest.. realli thot tmr got sch.. hmmrph...i wana buy alot of things leh...look forward to monday!! BoA cd is not gonna to b missed :D i wan lotsa of cd... i wan.... ahaha. vCD~! i WaN..tt qUicksIlvER sports bAG?! dunno..haha. tt's too ex.. buy end of yr ba..
quiz...
Pretty Personality!
What personality do you have? ^o~
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You have love in your eyes for your seriously
depressed cutie crush. He'll get better. If you
maybe talk to him and make him smile n such. He
should be okay. Just try your best. And be his
friend. He may not want a gf now. But later he
will. It'll get better. Just wait
Tears(girls only)
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aww..
life's boring w/o sch.. 1st time i miss the stacks of hw.. in fact..i ern for MORe work.....haiz. its realli true rotting down here.. everi morning wake up.. brush teeth.. eat... vcd.. eat.. online...bathe....eat....tv....n more tv...n sleep. siao diao....
he's online in e noon...finally changed his nick.. heal the world.. hmmz... coz of the war n sars? haha.. well.. not much toking thou.. he went off playing com games after a while.. -sigh- maybe i shud get use to it ba ah...........half of my toe thumb nail is out... gross... scully dun grow back den how....
diamond
You're a Diamond. You seem like a cold and an
unreachable person outside, yet you are
beautiful inside and outside. You may be
stubborn at times. You act with grace and
elegance and you are a precious asset to all
your friends.
What Jewel Are You?
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so zun... my birthstone is diamond aso..... :p
quizez
You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
devoted to others,especially that one
person.You really can't get them out of your
head,but then,you don't really want to.
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You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you?
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Red/Green/Blue:
To you, the world is logical. Everything happens
for a reason, life is scientific. You like to
find solutions. I doubt you needed to take this
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What color do you see the world in?
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The Whirlwind
The whirlwind lives in the physical world; it receives its power from the machinations of the physical world and yet is not of the world. Its power comes from the whirlwind's ability to sense how things might be and to proclaim this possibility with a great force and willingness to act.
Patterns of life leave traces in the mind of the whirlwind, which it uses to understand not only the present but the future as well. The whirlwind has a tendency to be romantic, and can often be an idealist. This sense of how the world can be is often expressed with self-deprecatory humor, which can alleviate some of the tensions that might arise from such idealism.
SARS
man. sch will onli resume after 6th april. wad the heck man... as if dis break will help? MOH dun close down schs for medical purposes k. for the sake of PARENTS HU SEEK CONCERN bout SARS.. i mean.. so wad? u mean parents shud chain their kids up at home meh? n... hu's so sure after 6th the disease wun continue to spread man? haiz.. our O's dis year.. n so mani great events happening... dunno will affect not.. the iraq war.. dis SARS thing...is the earth getting self destruction soon??? wad quarantile... dun tink its of much help aniway....since SARS is not airborne... CLOSE contact. not casual contact.....damn it. i haf dis serious thinking tt SARS seem to b spread by some horrible ppl out there...osama? hahaah. saddam?! lolx heng i got my phy bk n ´ÊÓïÊÖ²á.. if not dis morning i wud haf to go back at 720am!?!?!? to get it.. heard mrs wong will get into trouble for letting the whole bunch go back to sch? hope not.. aniway mani ppl will head back to their sch to get bks wad.. if not rot at home meh? everione so unprepared. n mrs wong shud tell us instead of keeping us in suspense yest man. say until as if our bandrm kana bombed. lolxsheeshh.. tt means no tutorial !? wad the.. i wan my reed.. maybe i wud go my tutor's house when i pass by to get reeD~damn lah. dunno wad's the prob wif adeline.... she's always complaining...........moreover. so mani instances already she lose temper in front of the whole band.. public. wad a GD role model for our juniors.. muz she EXPOSE all the internal conflicts...wad's worse... got nose n duck support her. hell to dem. so mani ppl i can't stand.. y r dey liddat?she aso. always complain say A often lose her temper for no reason.. pissed over trival matters.. n here.. everitime i see the 3 of dem always together...i noe there's no way n i'm not trying to stop dem from being together? its dumb.. budden....to me i gess she's juz as.. not realli fake. but partially fake as others... yay.. so great huh.. toopid yh juz went off in dom's car w/o telling me.. n i was still wondering where the hell the whole world disappear to. n so i'm left wif the bunch of guyz... dey tink its funny.. i dun tink so.... i'm always the one they turned to wheneva dey haf complaints bout so n so.... but den when dey r fine... wah.... u can see X n Y together regardless how Y can't stand X... n Y also seem so close wif Z... regardless how sam ba Y tinks Z is..n there's more to it..... B aso...-sigh- till now. hu r my real frenz tt realli express their truth self n not being such hypocrital. i dunno hu n where r they. gess its not time yet to meet dem? n so i went mac wif dem i home wif dem.. on the way back our fone r so bz replying sms n ans-ring calls...wrt SARS relating issues. hahaha.. can see so mani unbelievably excited faces to get hold of the news of closing schs till 6th... haiz.. no one is even concern bout how dangerous the situation is now.....e usual supercilious faces i see... whole world in pandamonium.....shudn't it b each n everione's perogative to b concern bout wad's happening n becoming of our future state...haiz...watched meteor garden II to disc 16 le..can't help feeling lonely..... how i wish.. i cud still haf someone to tok to... care for me...b there for me... juz like 5 yrs back....(sound as if i m so old uh?)... well. ever since den.... no one has eva showered me wif tt kinda care n luv....maybe fish. budden. well. he seems so fake.. n.. character..haiz. -no comments-... but indeed.. limyang cared lots for me.. i'm veri grateful for tt...juz as well i'm so ashamed for wad i did to him.. remorse? for letting go such a nice guy....tt's juz life... ah well...i'm still waiting for him....an absolution?? *y can't i getta him out of my head.. y...? i begin to wonder....tt's bout all i hafta say.. a long entry indeed.
yesterday is the past... tommorrow is a mystery ... today is a gift...tt's y i call it the present...
well..was still grumbling bout how the music camp will drain away my holidays.. n now everithing is over n i kinda missed it? weird uh? today's a sunday..n tmr will b a beginning of a new sch term.. gess serious work ought to b put in already..
study supposedly shud b one of my perogative..budden..haha.. i juz slack throughout the yrs...tink our playing has improved..budden i no longer hear the perfect piece played throughout...previous round credentium was indeed flawless...even few wks b4 it was 95% well played??.. but now.. gess its the difficulty.. lotsa mis pitches... blah blah... all dis worries me... coz i wan the top 5.. n arn determined to get it. gess rest of the peeps feel the same too.... all the best. we can make it. juz do our best... (^-^)kenny got in nj instead..now waiting to see his appeal was a success..haiz.. dun so upset... both r gd sch... dun realli matter.. but wad's done is done.. nth u can bring back uh... cheer up k.... =) for him.. i dunno anithing...wan to noe .. but.. dun wan to find out...wad for initiate a conversation or wad.. its ptless.. u juz feel the other end as if he's avoiding u.. dunno whether its true. tt's juz how i feel.. n usually a gal's 6th sense is rather accurate.. n i chose to believe... judging from the situation we r in now.....hafen tok for.....a veri long time i suppose..i made a vow to forget him e beginning of dis new yr. i failed.. n now... gess even the bond of the close frenz no longer exist...slowly fading away. sad? haiz. gess so. it hurts...too much.... to tink...maybe he thinks dis doesn't bother me animore..... but.. does he noes...he's still the one i'm tinking of.... all along....? bet he doesn't... n... there's nth anione can do to salvage the situation..dey came on thurs and sat...he sat in the centre block....thurs..conductor was unable to get him out of my sight due to the position he was...i din wana look.. but at times juz can't help but glance a few times... saw his stare....no more the warm one...but can feel a veri cold....n distant look btw us...wasn't concentrating at all..... /sat sitting ard the same place but i cudn't see him... thot i wud feel more comfortable..but saw him left his seat to ans a call.. eventually walking out...my heart sank following tt...n y m i feeling tt way.. gess... i still like u...a lot alot...forget it....juz leave things the way it is..i hate the dodo bird. i hate the window cleaner. the rest.. varies from time to time....but tt dodo bird tink she prefect great uh? she sux. disgusting lafter..can't stand it.....everione ard me is so hypocrite... some ppl claims dey hate hypos too...n proclaim dey aren't one of dem. n tt's wad i see... world sux.... n gess.. it wun juz stop revolving for one person... life's gonna goes on....no one gifs a damn. darling take care....see doctor k/
pissified
realli long tt i update here.. dun tink i will come often though juz lost my temper at sunny. he realli suc lor. so wad if he's great in maths? well. i'm juz dumb enough to get myself humilated juz now. merely ask him something.. den ask him wad section is it under.. den he say.. under use ur brain la. wad the fuck. so wad if he's gd in maths. he tink its funny lor. f. i was like.. fine. forget tt i ask. den he say he can't forget lorz. y so fierce. n i juz so? juz can't stand ur fucked up attitude.. n tink he pissed aso. juz reply wif a wateva. arrgh. maybe i was juz a bit short tempered juz now. but i juz can't stand it la. he's always liddat one.... in sch aso.. even use force on gals de lorz. call dis a guy? nah. he onli nice to zz onli hor. so PATIENt to her. the world sux. so mani yucky ppl.haiz. totally no contact wif him le... *
over...
its juz diff...the way our conversation sounds like... diff feeling le.. gradualli running out of topic. juz now i din even tok much. he juz told me bout his results n tt's it.... i gess....dis is wad we shud remain as ba. no matter wad he tink me as or treat me as....he'll always b the 2nd guy tt i eva liked ...n it will always b dis way.. y can't things b simple.. y muz things always b so complicated..y isn't tt pure frenship btw 2 sexes...tt time was z ...n eventually the best fren bond no longer exist..... n now was him...it will turn out the same i gess. issit true tt the person hu like u the most will nv b the person u love the most?
sux
haiz..he got 14.. wonder if he gets to stay in tj.. hope so.. i believe can one de....all e best.. tt day the few of dem came back...n yea. tt woman muz come back. at least can she get out of our sights not? come back no guts to go own section... liddat veri happy issit. siao. cut hair le she. oh man. not much diff. as yucky as eva. ruin my mood man. no news of my wallet still..haiz... tink no hope le..ralli veri touched.. thx both of u... haiz.. din expect u all realli go buy me another wallet..smmore so ex de...n....got the one tt i like since sec 2...sorry hai u had to take cab home after tt due to late hrs..sorri...haiz.... when i reach home n took it out again... i cried.... i noe its dumb... but at tt pt of time... nobody has realli show such great concern n thot towards me........i'm juz sick of hearing... next time b more careful lorz.. n stuff.....great lorz. dad receive another letter again....haiz.... i'm realli scared.. .i realli dunno wad will happen to my family the next moment...i dun tink things will b fine if dis persist... n i reali hate ppl saying wad i'm rich n stuff. no matter joking anot... coz...i'm not..... n i hate to b "accused" of things which isn't the truth.. great huh. how m i gonna survive all e way down.... no allowance..family getting into greater financial trouble.. if there's a trip coming on i dun tink i'm able to make it oready...make Ic will cost a bomb...ez link n posb card aso need money..change the lock aso need $.. now tt wallet i lost cost me 400 bucks...win liew
suay
y muz it b me... thou my mum nags alot...n after hearing wad my damn father said..u can realli feel hu cares for u n hu doesn't. yes. he doesn't even care bout my feelings at all. all he noe is money n money. selfish freak. the moment he heard the word DONATE he flare up. pls lorz. hu's fault hu make up land up in such pathetic situation. whole day onli noe how to blame ppl. n ppl is much more worse off den u... tt little sum of money may even help him create miracles..thou its not veri big.. oh ya. so u expect me to gif 50 cents lah. well. maybe tt's retribution.... tt's y i lose all my money...totally no mood to do anithing.. stare into blank space... coop up in my room....n cry...its been 3 hrs.. n i hafen step out of the room... i'm hungry.. but wad can b worse den facing a father hu can say such cruel things to u...eyes r veri swollen now..if not for the o level results tmr. i wun go to sch...juz feel ptless... i need to calm down... hafen realli got over wad happen...thx guyz for consoling... thou i dun pin much hope on getting the wallet back...coz fone calls juz dash away all e hopes i got.gal...i dun expect u to buy me a wallet la.. its not the wallet i'm worry bout rite.. its the contents...haiz...but maybe ur' my "loanshark" for buying a new wallet...coz i'm penniless now.
(>_<)
had geog retest..hmmz... waited for bloody goh for half n hr. dua us again like last yr remedial . haiz... quite hard de qns... hmmz... recently realise i look at him he stare back? oh man. scully marc tink i like him den die! hmmz..kw.. can come sch tmr not... its juz veri horrible one...i mean.. veri lonely de...everi thing aso do alone.... pe worse...everithing aso lah. juz feel all alone in klaz...everibody engaged in their own stuff n me rot there...see u r so impt to me... *haiz... but the feeling is realli... duno how to describe. u can juz burst out crying? hahaaz. abit extreme though.. but realli hope u can come lah.... if not pe i'm so alone. haiz. veri saddening de..... smmore we got eng tt ad hafen do......
dunno lah. smone say smthing tt make me depress...
so. cheer up eileen? hope i can?
haiz.
-geez-
oh man! u guyz r great. 2nd item u all got from me of him. lolx.... muz hao hao shou qi lai. hahahz.... n today he walk past our klaz after sch.. den i looked at him obvious. hahaz...den he turned in!-melts instantly- playing soccer..so seh....haha either tmr or thurs get o level results.. gan jiong sia...hope i get A1. i mean realli.. if even chi i dun get A1. the others sub i no confidence to get at least B3 le! dun u tink so? n i hope u do well n remain in ur present sch now either....her new entry. -peng- cant' stand le. she realli think she some bball expert...or xiao xi the manager. muahhaahz..yh's fainting soon i gess... he asked me go watch hot chick.. i wan to watch de.. but wif.... him!?!??!! oh man. hahaz. kw go wif me! bua tahan le! can feel e shit is coming out. tata!
hahaz. back from hiatus?? -__-
long since i updated le..well..not much stuff in e past days...went to do geog project on sun...took pics of geylang n went hp's house...quite ok lah... now i'im searching for infos lorz..n i got a lamo nick?? besides cheena pok i'm da sao. for god's sake... i'm wad triad leader's gf?! hahahz.. -__- yupz...sat rehearsal at auditorium...brought jacket!! haha..so nice.. den fish n kak came back... n some alumnis....yeah.. "try out" 5% of mahler. hahaz..sounds like shit. lolx... i'm typing backwards time huh? aha fri had tutorial..yepz..got my piece abit worked out....getting tutorials at his house.. hafen set yet....oh ya... wana get myself a new tuner. the damn 6 yr old tuner is rotting. hahaz... kk... bout today...got back maths test..oh man.. i thot i wud do well.. expecting 30 one de.. but haiz. got 24.. gess i'm too over confident dis time.. suan le. abit disappointed thou..lowest is 20 n i'm.. 24? haiz. nvm.....teach little to teach more..... tt's wad the teachers do today.. everi one wore same shirt .. den mostly is class work one.. quite fun. nv sleep. hehehez..yeah... haf yet to ask parents for donation. realli wana help. but... looking at my economic status. dunno lahz. can one i tink? i'm bad enough. but there r more unlucky ones out there...woodwinds combine...mr ng came at 245 liddat..ah. damn pissed k. nose sitting in front of me? n she keep toking n giggling non stop. n can't stand her getting tt new flute. she sux totally... tone nv change n wadeva. she dun deserve.dun wana bitch bout ppl one. but juz can't help to say mean things to mean ppl. i mean dey r damn fake... for example towards ch lah. act so concern bout her... behind her backstab her.. tok so much shit to mrs wong. F dem lah... wha lau.. n today she so noisy. keep whining. yux. i was diao-ing her. hahah.yh saw me.. she saw me. but wonder she noe i'm doing it at her? hahaz......n joc is driving me nuts. well. i'm not going to b the nice woman animore. u tink i'm joking huh guyz? watch out. my section u haf ppl hu tink dey damn seh. fine..... watch it. my squad....gess i'm too nice to dem in e past.. now dey tink wadeva i say is joking wif dem onli.....hahaz. wad a joke... dey say i dun look like smone i will noe how to scold ppl. wad ignorant shits. hahahz.... but to say smthing lah.. i tink onli jon.ng.. weeyang...alan gif me respect lorz. the gals r like tink i fren arh. haiz . y muz dey make me resort to dis? yh can't stand tt woman at times..hahah... abit agree wif andy le wor?? haha..act. me too lahz....haiz.. i mean... hu's not liddat de? haiz.. xi guan le lorz....ah ya. she make as if she realli xiaoxi.. the bball manager....tmr got maths revision test.hope i can do well.........mani ppl online.. but no one i can tok to.... ps in rugby! wt in bowling! ros in squash! ly in hockey! oh man. the world is turning crap.... jw aso in rugby issit. forget liew....tt's bout all!! tata
wha lau...
i can feel tt jason is pranking on me.... i mean... i already kana played in sec 2 lorz...still remember tt time tok online...he 2e ma..wk's klaz... den chatted wif him lots...den one day he suddenly go round telling ben toh n frenz like qixiang he like me...i din noe at 1st.. noe thru ben n i was so shocked -___- keep siam-ing hu i thot was him.. n onli found out last yr tt the person i thot was jason was qi xiang. hahahaz..... den now he start again!! ah...keep ask me he got chance anot n stuff.... *another bernard? den i veri scare i say wrong things.. coz now we diff level.. i dun wana hurt his feeling or smthing.. u noe.. coz of the retain thingy mah... cannot let him tink i tink he's inferior! ah.. dunno lahz... den wad go out after sch wif him n stuff..........
juz say tmr i got 2 tests need to study.....tell me wad to do?
monday blue
nth special today.. had some sai-ty secretary meeting tt last onli 15mins.. n repeating same thing everi yr. wah lau. can even memorise tt... den waited for someone for 1 n a half hr wor.........*erhem miah-clarinet...ren hao-sax....wee min-trumpet...=) doing hw now..kinda sian....but..aniway...tt's bout it today. tata
CELLO: You are a deep thinker, in love with life.
You have a mellow personality and are serious
but pleasant.
What musical instrument is most like your personality?
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sh: relac k..after reading his dj i was so shocked. din noe he's such a person...haiz.. wo kan chuo ren le... nvm bout him.. i'm on ur side too besides ur gang alv wm n aaron.today's a fine day.. did jian bao .. a little bit of chem ws... n wrote kw a 3 page message. haha.. touched not.. *was juz feeling bored...now so sianz...so mani ppl online but i dun tok to those ppl one...oh ya.. tt toopid maths qns.... die le. cannot do lorz....stupid me^ snyo form still left untouched. waiting for liu chang to b back n ask him for help! sheesh...tian yao's a nice person... onli knew him recently..veri helpful. he play string bass one de... in s'pore poly now...18* haha. den he's 188 tall. peng diao man....tt bsn principal is kewl lorz. he's in almost all the famous bands in spore n abrsm grade 8. he rox arh. waiting to see him in real...toopid sunny is a freak. he did the maths in sch.. n i spent like one day doing it still dunno how to do even 30%... wah lau. keep saying how ez it is... damn him.n he still dare to say he onli got one qns dunno how to do. WAH JI. misc exercise 2nd last qns. siao ding dong. he finish the whole chapter's qns except tt. is he a sicko or wad. hey. if i reeli go scold u shud noe the consequences...those com ppl will @_@ k.. sure kbkb one.haiz.. dun wana invite so much trouble. but i do wad i can....n..haiz* facing my 5566 poster now..hahah.. taizi smiling at me sia. lolx... n gosh. i juz smack a moth flat n realli into a heap of dust. oh man. yux!!!!! flying all over lorz. gross....
exchange at ahs
kewl sia...wif Ri SJI hsc (burt's there! playing picc)... ri is gd... sji not bad lah.. to tink dey change the piece onli a few days ago...jia you.. u all can make it.... renhao miah.. take it ez. juz do ur best. =) dey say our string bass veri stylish.haha.. de muz b 1st time seeing string bass players le... coz our band one quite stiff like lorz...appication form rite here. wonder if i shud go for e audition in may... waitin for my tutor's advice...went mac after earli dismissal.. woohoo.. ben lai quite fun de.. den suddenly so mani ppl came..a bit uncomfortable...den today the jh dislike has risen...so.. quite bua song when i see her today lorz... den come mac tink she so seh arh. whole hair wet dun tie...*hmz.. sorry hor.. ur gd fren i say till liddat. pardon me....n smmore toopid kw. so late come mac. nv go wif us... smmore go there liew still dao us...
wah lau. angry wif u le lah. he say i creative!! muahahz.. nth much mah. all buy one..not make one.. smmore the idea not mine. hahaz...den he come online a while den go off le. sobz...pam change target again le. but still cchs one de.. wad tall shuai seh.... *quite unblievable. muz see for myself....k le. veri tired.... go orh orh liew... niteZ!
happy valentines' day!
hey~ once again vday.... hmm.. nth special lorz... veri normal...but again i spent hell lotsa $ on presents.. i'm not rich.. but juz dunno y i seem to like feel guilty not buying dis n tt for wadeva person.. den will juz buy ...haiz.... abit the waste $ thou... but... most ppl like my presents... i veri lihai to choose suiting gifts. hahaz.. =p n i eventually became yh's wrapping service woman....everithing juz dump to me n wrap... 1st of all. thx ppl for the waist pouch.. but i scare u all haf wasted money on me le.... its too big for me... den i thot i thin mah.. den i ask my mother try.. she put last hook aso damn loose?!?!! n her waist is almost 30 le lorz... wad de hell.. so big? i thot e.p.o. stuff all damn puny y dis toopid pouch so big...haiz.. i veri sad noe... i reallie like it so much den can't even wear... n i'll nv haf a waist of 32??? in order to qualify for the 1st hook..-___- aniwhere i can make holes or ani idea to tighten the belt?? pls enlighten me?!! thx sh for the cookie! so sweet.. veri nice!!! bu she de eat.... den my mother say it looked pro.. hahaz.. taste nice... u r great! =) thx darling for ur me to u bear.. u spend so much!!! ah.. love u lots... u aso spend lotsa $ on his present hor... hmprh...*feel so honoured to get ur present! (^-^) den received lotsa lotsa chocs n sweets.. alot of chocs!! oh man.. i dump all to my mum. she can eat till she boh gei... oh yeah.. my mortal karen like the present alot. realli tink suits her alot!! hahaaha.... so girly. so pink... so sweet....ah yah.. passed his present to jessie... den ask her pass to tim.. den hope he remembers to pass to him tmr... din plan to buy one de.. but duno y yest still squeeze out my last bit of $ to buy... n now end up wif no $ to spend le... can starve liew. haiz...worth it not? dunno .. dun ask me..dunno y... even after few mths of not seeing him so often.... after not toking to him as often as b4 or communicating wadeva......e feeling hasn't fade away a single bit...n i juz miz him so much..... everiday.. i'm juz hoping to receive his sms...wait for an absolution.... tt will nv come? *haikeung got her e vday swatch...veri sweet n thotful...yes.. he's juz so nice to the person he like.. wish dem e best!!! but juz dun understand wad's the point of dem breaking n still behaving dis way? i tink its juz so lame....not veri happy the whole day...juz.. can't get things outta my mind..nvm.. saw alvin on e mrt juz now. so qiao..haha.. he called me.. den tok a while.. ask me if i going his sch for exchange tmr..muahahz.. den he got geog test tmr?! on a sat.. so weird...tt's bout all. n wad m i doing here everi nite.... coz of him.... i noe its dumb lah.. getting scoldings everi nite aso..but i can't help but come.....
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phew.. finish wrapping e presents le.. juz realise can't use same wrapper as my mortal..if not she will noe.. smmore i stupid go write her name on e paper wif my typical handwriting. hahahaz.*toopid ah well..he msg me last nite again! n he's outside playing pool . so late le still not at home... he always nv fail to waste his holidays man..hope to finish e ss cutting now.....but i hafen even started on it.. n i'm here online..hahaha.. n haf lame marcus
Oh man -__-
he's nv sick of the qns "wana b my stead not?" arrgh. can't stand him.......neway.... i'm still on my way liking the 2nd person in my life..hahaz. how will i change so fast de? ah damn. can he stop it..... yeah lah.. noe him for 8 yrz hor.hhahz.. so?? opps*
shOpping sPree~
finally got the angel mortal thing done..ah well..not full participation of e klaz...24 onli... not bad thou..but still quite disappointing....mine's karen~ quite nice..heng i nv get some disgusting person...*act. our klaz dun haf real disgusting person lahz..but juz tt some ppl r not worth buying for after sch me yh kw ade ran & jy went bugis..ate den shop for vday gifts...spend hell lotsa $ n i'm not done yet.. half done onli?? gess i will break my 100 bucks record again... always thot tt batch leave liew i wun spend so much. but like still de same wor. muhahaz. hope dey dun come baq dis fri. dun need waste $ on dem. ahhaahz....let me see..bot kw's liew.. privilege buy urs yest liew. hahah.. den bot homo's..karen's..sh...n a few others.... still got mani ppl hafen buy! let's see got hu....yh.. i noe wad i wana buy liew...den buy finger band for part mah.. den realise i muz buy 2 more packs.. for juniors aso...=) unity! den still got...a few others like ys..blah blah....buy tmr... ig's heaven. yeah man. hahaah. rox ! but scare not enough $ .. there damn ex....but i still considering whether to buy for "him".. maybe dun lah....see 1st lorz. i mite not even see him?? hahhaz.... but i enjoy my day... wud b beta if i got more $ wif me. hahahaz......budden met dicky pur p nose when we out today... oh man. -___- still keep ga jiao-ing ppl to buy her present as usual. i agree wif yc totally. yux. ^5 hahahaz....tt's bout all. kinda exicited. not over e concert. but over the presents i wana buy!!!
long quiz....
Name/nickname?
nick?? dun realli haf lahz... the onli lame one is baboon? haha
What CD do u most want to get?
currently..obviously is 5566 tt special edition cd!! got w/o ur love mtv one... *hints..n aso...saving up to buy liang jing ru's cd too..not tt impt thou..
What is your favourite food?
seafood...scallop! chilli crab!! sambal prawns...butter lobster!!... n ice cream..(rum n raisin!)...fast food lorz..n not to forget RICE. ahah
While you are browsing thru the racks at the library, u notice a cute guy watching you. He/she does this for a very long time. what would u do?
ah...kinda common for me recently!! but is always i get to see tt guy 1st.. den the guy look back ba...den we look at each other for bout 1 min...n went seperate direction...leaving behind a sweet smile . fwahahaha.....
What is YOUR idea of a dream guy?
ah...let me think.. looks dun realli matter. feeling tt counts...its veri natural one dis kinda of thing..ur heart tells u is him den jiu shi le...=p but obvious will kinda dream him to b a guy hu's taller den me? veri sweet n thotful.. caring... nice... gentleman....polite!! yepz..of coz muz b sporty one! n seh liked! (^-^)
What did you last eat, where was it, and who was with u?
eat mac?? alone....
What is your GREATEST fear?
fear of dejection....? or shud i place passing of chem n geog test 1st....
Favourite colour?
black lorz... white aso... but den now... abit wild bout red hor...
Crayons, colour pencils, marker pens, paint or colour pen?
coloured penz!
What would u MOST like to be when u grow up?
simple mind i haf...not career minded...juz wana b a gd wife.. (if not got guy wana marry me).. wif 2 seh kids n a great hubby.... if for job leh.. i wud go into computer engineering... or juz ani engineer...coz i'm not meant for studying aniway..hahah.. or i can b a chinese teacher. lolx....
Caucasians, Asians, French, Italian or Blacks?
asians der. i dun like caucasians remember... i wana b chinapok. ahha
What is/are your favourite number?
fave no. 2.. coz it represent a pair... maybe.. 13..coz is related to him mar.
What was the last movie you watched which made you cry?
can't tink of ani... so.. shud b MVP. i cry practically everi scene..haiz....
Ever wielded a knife at anyone before?
me? hahaz. i can't even hold a knife properly... i scared? my mom noes..hahaz....
Pizza Hut or Seoul Garden?
can i take both?!
Strawberry/ Chocolate/ Vanilla/ Plain milk?
nah.. all got eat / drink but den not my fave. dun wana make a choice.
How many steads do u plan to have?
how to plan. impossible rite? but if i eva haf a choice.. i'm e type hu onli will haf one bf n juz get on wif him e rest of my life. tt's my wish lahz.. but now leh.. my 1st one is gone for long... hahaz
Favourite sport?
Swimming n netball... of coz squash!(those pro lose to me k. haha
What is the 1st thing you notice about someone of the opposite sex?
voice. from there can gadget his character...for me onli lahz.
Favourite brand?
elle~ kappa jerseys r kewl... nike sports shoes r still e best...thou new balance ones r kinda similiar... adidas soccer boots...
What was the happiest moment of your life?
up till now.. got a few lorz.. one of the 1st few r times when i spent wif wk... in sec sch... not much.. more of upset moments... but recent one is.... when i was out wif him last mon.... i realli genuinely was veri happy. felt as if i cud put down everithing n get away wif my present life....but it doesn't last huh?
Which movie do you want to see the most?
tt day on tv got one commercial forget the title le.. its a eng comedy... but for now.. wished to watch shanghai knights act. de...... tt day he got ask...haiz.. but i gess he watch liew.. so.. nvm ba.
What are your favourite magazines?
style~ teenage ~
To u what is the most important thing in life?
unrealistic n stupid... but.... i can't realli do w/o a guy to b truthful....i feel veri empty... i veri dependant of tt person one.....haiz...
What's the most daring thing u have ever done?
fake my parents n sneak out a few times.... coz dey dun allow me go out wif guy de.
Wad type of people do u hate the most?
arrogant. HYPOCRITES. 2 faced or triple face ppl...so fake one... n act cute act chio....
If your boyfriend makes you wait for over an hour, What would u do?
wait lorz.. hahaz.. had tt b4... smmore dun feel angry at all....funny huh? but if tt person is a gal.. limit is half an hr. hahah.. juz diff lorz... zhong se qing you ba.
What animal do you like best?
Dogs!
If u had a chance to star as a character in any movie, what character would you be?
barbie in mvp!
If u were paid a million dollars to murder a man, would you do it?
duh. i wun.
Who do u enjoy talking on the phone MOST?
him of coz.
Favourite festival?
used to b vday.. but now.. no more..
If your stead asks you for a kiss, where would you most likely kiss him?
hahaz.. cheeks.
How do u let out stress?
cry. listen to songs... ask him stay wif me by my side..w/o saying a word.
Favourite song?
tiao bo. waiting.
When do u hope to get married?
24
What's your favourite fashion item?
accessories...nice clothings...formal type? i wear anithing.
When's your birthday?
17th april
Wad is the virtue you pride yourself on having?
i act toopid at times lah. but dun u tink i'm a serious n mature gal?? onli when i dun act spaz lorz.
What's your horoscope?
aries
Do u believe in love at first sight?
yes i do.....wk is one... is kinda.. stead at 1st sight. hahhaz...bonded the time when we noe each other
What is the phrase u always repeat?
oh my gawd.
Tattoos or piercings?
onli 2 holes lorz. ear holes
What do u think is your best feature?
longer den normal eye lashes..single eye lid.. not too small e eye.. not too big aso .hahahaz....n long fingers...
Yay done with it.
lame shit
well. dis sat juz suc totally.. com is a totally failure wif those people inside lorz... onli noe how to act big....act busy....oh man. juz to say.. u all sux... 1st got tt nose....which i 100% detest... not to mention my dear partmate..(but its onli when she's unreasonable..other times she's fine wif me..n quite nice)...n dicky...totally a changed person i noe...a whiny shit..damn hiao n acbc....haiz..y liddat? u used to b my best fren...one nice little gal...n now....so fake...n flirt.... forget it lah. dun wana mention animore....bet e alumnis will b disgusted n disappointed to hear bout yest incident...tim was. hahaz....n gek....i got one new homo partner! lolx..."she's too young to noe her needs. onli i do." lolx....tt's stupid lahz... haha. but she veri fun to ga jiao...gosh. yet to buy ani vday presents...hu shud i buy for? k lah..the finger bands i going to gif ade. dom. yh n myself!... den still got !!!angel n mortal!!! (hafen prepare the things (-__-)' ) die liew.... den got sh.. klaz ppl dunno whether to get...but if get for a few den like veri biased...buy for all i no $$..band ppl aso... shall see lah..got ani nice things den i buy lorz........my discman!! hope i can buy today.........=) but dun dare to mention bout it yet......
idiot ass
now wad both fat asses going to co concert. n if got seat no tt kw n jh will haf to sit away from e whole grp. great ah. i've to b stuck wif dem. yh so ? cracking lame jokes wif tt fat ass. i juz dun see e pt y she finds him ke lian.. n y is there ppl liking him. his character n behaviour sux totally. ah well. dun tink i'll b entering vch if its realli liddat. i rather juz spend the 8 bucks buy ticket n siam.
life sux
so wad if its another fri. it juz sux. no big deal. c'mon. m i a person tt show my inner side even once? nahz. haiz...its realli rotten-ing hafing to feel dis way...u noe. nahz. wad do u noe.
already liddat. try create a conversation wif my mother n i got railed at for nth..n of coz i rebutt...which sparked off another quarrel.. dis time i din even raise my voice n dis is wad i get n blamed. wtf. so mani things happen...revolving round me... suppressing me into deep pressure...i realli can't take it ani longer.. n i juz cry to myself... so much wanted to tok to smone at tt pt of time....not realli tok...but... juz a company by my side... or a shoulder to lend.....haiz* but it wud nv happen again........i'm realli so upset.. its realli kinda worse when u can't say things out to someone at dis pt of time.....
oh realli?
i was 70% b4 u noe angel..hahahaz..tt's kewl. but dunno whether its true. but juz kan bu chu jiu dui le rite. muhaahhaz..den u gaf her 100% she bounce back 150% to make u -50% hahaahz....den now u haf 60% for jas...n u r hesitating...i noe u r nice.. so juz consider well lorz...n dun fred. i will believe u one rite? n not tt disgusting dom freak
red rox
mr chew hospitalised..haiz..es feeling bad aso..haiz..today's a bad day! ge~ so cute today..hahahaz...he damn cute..so seh.. no wonder can b my ge! geezsaw the apple pie seh kia at white sands again...ah..but i went there he left. tt's sad...totally obsess wif red colour now..once my most hated colour n now i like it so much...muhahaz..even got myself a red pencil case...den so excited to see the red jacket..but its 149 bucks..sobz..but damn nice..got alot of nice red bags. kewl man....ate kfc after sp wif pom pee pee n kwa-ong..haha.ah...tmr band again...tim coming back! ahahz. but pray so hard tt bitch dun let me see her in dhs again. coz i simply hates her. yes. hate is e word. whole world hates her. except for guyz n a few blind gals. dunno which idiot tear siokhui's shufa again. idiot arh. hope tt meanie get retribution...ah..went to staple it back.. ah..den e toopid heavy wooden board squash my toe. ouch man..so darn pain..haha..den kaijun wailee help me..ey.. but i damn mean...forgot to say 10q to dem...feel so bad. dey walk a bit too fast~! n she got her keychain finally.she so happy...he's putting in on his hp aso..hahaso mani days le..i m missing him again....haiz* its realli veri sad...... n juz another 2 mth plus n it gonna b one yr already ... n its kinda miracle i'm able to keep it a secret last time...until now onli a few ppl noe onli...n onli kw noe the ESSENCE of it..pam tim jes onli noe tt i like him. hahaahz
steAdy pom peE pee^
woohoo..its steady pom pee pee's burfday today! happy birthday gal!=) hope u like e water bottle i bot for u~ thou i still dun find it appealing to me..nvm... u like can liew... ya..finally got huiping marc hunning present..but wun gif so soon..coz still hafen get card..forgotten bout it..gonna get belated for 2 of dem..den got beng kia at bugis today....geez... n me n kw bot f4 cd liew! woohoo. i'm kinda prepared to welcome my new discman..but still deciding on which one to buy..toopid fish. hypnotise me last nite..now i quite like SLiM X aso....but so ex.....nah. juz get some aiwa 189...find wif me..juz can mp3 . cd rw can liew..... went to dentist today..heng got the older one...young one sux...n she kinda quarreled wif alisa today...lolx. can see the veins in her eye balls. yux....bitch man...tjm today veri cute..hahaz...toopid ass jon. fall for his trick once again.....n eug hair seem to b growing at a fast pace....went home tt time mrs goh on train..scare hell out of me....oh yahz....hope u guyz did well for e geog quiz..nahz. was again quite upset since yest..same old reason isn't it...juz...frenly...den cold ...frenly..den cold...haiz...y liddat...nvm....gd luck to ur test/s dis wk....n hope tt day u manage to finish ur tonnes of hw...jas ys getting on well..ahahha. her bday coming wor...all e best...toopid request. but i will try to fulfil u gongky.money set aside for discman...wana get a new pencil case..mine's rotting. i desperately need one.. but i so choosy smmore... everithing i see aso not nice...actually got lahz....but its at tampines mall..lazi to go there buy.... den i tink its quite cheapo....hahahz.oh ya..aso some money for ppl hu's bday coming..dunno hu aso.ahahahz....
kk... juz bout it..
tired!
celebration today. haha. suay arh. 1st ting in morning kana kiw seng...shud haf walked up spiral. all coz of tjm's fault. haha. i saw him den i walk towards audi..hu noes kiw ambush there...ji....so paiseh lorz...n smmore not juz me....haiz.. dis time round concert quite nice..not tt boring as b4. except for e cds dance. sux like hell...yc..simin..yew.....he came back too....but..din tok lorz. din even say hi aso. hahahz...n din sms...lolx... juz dun wan disturb him so often. ltr he irritated man....hahahz...e knight din bother to come back today....princess sad.hahahz.... hmm...heard from kiniwa tt janice flirt again....haiz...kinda upset to hear tt u noe.... tt time got once i saw lah..both together...den he saw me looking..den i juz walk away alone.....haiz. dunno wad to say aso....forget it...rehearsal ended kinda late...n heng i brought jacket. so bloody cold there...hahah.. ate cookies there..cheap n nice... yepz..hafen study chem...haiz...pray hard dun fail.....tmr pipi's bday..hafen buy her present..belated again..muahahz...hmmz..dis wk onli chem test..yay man.... ah well....i realli missed him lots...haiz....when i'm not suppose to b tinking so much....
coz we will remain as close frenz....
bua tahan!
wah lau. can't stand tt disgusting worm liew lahz. hate toking to him online. so irritating. n those ans. juz can't stand it lahz. totally so gay. oh man.... kw arh. u better not still like him hor. he totally sux. whole day down there bragging wad mrs wong call him. mrs wong tok to him. tmr he heng. dun need participate games. coz haf to stay in hall all e time yea lah. so big mah...... wad vp tok to him tt day... say recognise him as chair of exco...pui*so wad. exco nv haf such a disgusting person as chair. wah lau. juz can't stand bitching bout him! arrgh! irritating piece of shit. i go out during cny he aso muz kpo. none of his business lorz. den ask hu i go out. y muz i tell u. den i juz replied ppl den he say..oh ya..y shud i ask..none of my business aniway. siao shit den still ask for wad. boh liao. siamz lah u.
to kw
yea lah.. its purple...so obvious. act nice in front of ppl. behind tok so much stabbing stuff. F her man.... hehez...tj ppl maybe coming back tmr leh kw. hehehez.... excited?
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agreement day.. he msged me last nite but i slept liew..so i replied onli around 11...yupz..so..met at 2.30 one...but hor...hahaz..both aso late....actually me nv late lorz..i was so dumb...i stop at paya lebar... went s'pore post walk around... coz i dun wan let him tink he late den rush here n there....walk one round take mrt juz nice..he's there...yepz...den the mrt reached bugis hor..*boom.hahahz...spoil!!! den haf to get off wait another one...so suay. e other one came rite...boom boom boom. like gonna spoil again....but heng its fine....dili daly for bout half n hr lorz..damn... kk...so set off the jurong...ice world!! go ice skate.hahaz....me 1st time..though got skate b4..but its diff from ice skate. smmore is skate like p2 p3 liddat.hahahz.....prepare to fall like shit lorz.....he wore a red jacket... veri nice...those baggy jeans..abit shiny...darn nice...geez...we were so scared go there den nv open..coz lotsa shops nv open....den he say he got mrt phobia..dun wana take back liew...but heng..its open....but....so damn cold!!!!he was asking if i was cold....hehe. obvious i'm? coz i'm one hu not scare of hotness....abit cold will shiver type...thus i change my skirt into jeans at home....kk...oh man...*grr...its cold!! go there pay entrance fee..den take skates....i dunno how to type. hahaz. he type for me...*opps.. i'm realli stoopid...haha..he even brought socks n gloves for me..coz he noe i wun bring one.... but as we were ready dey gotta do smthing to de ice...so wait quite long...*silence...for quite long aso..abit awkward...den he tok bout how dey skate last time...say how scare kak was...blah blah.....kk..n finaly dey r done..so we went....ey... i was kinda stable..can walk quite ok on ground.hahhh.but on ice.....
oh man...........................so slippery!!!aHHH!!! i veri scare...den he hold me mah....ey.. i veri e unstable....den fall alot of times..... a few times he even fall wif me... i hai him one...*sorry!! but got once is he pull me one! damn sure. i ok one lorz. he lose balance!!! hahaz... 1 hr lahz....den saw alot pros skating.n aso some beginners....me arh..... walk damn fast. ice walking...tt's wad he say...shud b ice skating lorz.hahaah.... i'm juz like tim...kk...i got bruises everiwhere i tink. hahahaz..keep falling.... bout 5 times.....so after tt...went long john eat...n went back....n ya... i scratch my hand...he onli realise it while he reaching his stop.....not tt pain at tt time..but when i reach home n bathe oh man. can scream! hahahz...got home at around 7... realli enjoyed myself... how i wish time cud stay at the skating ground........
no i'm not.
hey. i'm not like her. so stop comparing. we r 2 worlds apart lorz. hahaz. still dun see wad u ppl see. is dis kinda call star look. den whole world full of stars.
hai*
yepz..another siantaning day lah.. went uncle's house at sengkang...n today is sho ...dunno how to say...e moment i wake up even till now... my right eye is wif double eye lid.. so farnie lorz..one eye big one eye small. hahahaz...so went there..1st to reach..yepz....den more n more ppl came...not realli... but at least today not so packed n squeezy n humid like yest.. yan's getting much better looking...shaowei.hahah..army liew still so puny..tt's wad i tink lahz...i bet yuhuan lipeng taller den him man. hahahaz...he veri kiddo.. still play wif his sister...his sister older liew..not so gd looking as b4. dunno y aso...n i tink she's growing to look like her mum alot...n duh...giao says i look like celest. abit e far from it hor. but i tink ping's grown so much chioer....n i tink her bf veri sweet to her.. nice guy type...=) ya...haiz...actually i'm able to go out today one..but lehz..u nv mention anithing aso..i was waiting e whole noon u noe...even till e moment i left my uncle's house..nvm....gess u r tired....or its juz my wishful thinking part again...so much pimples on my face. ARRGH! ping's face is sparkling n fair....realli... my mother says tt too.. last time she sec sch not so chio. now omg..so chio.....but her ear lotsa holes. hahahaz.....but today i veri satisfied wif my hair condition....e shape i wana it to b. hahaz...she say its nice aso......but at least... she's e onli person hu nv say i look like kelly chen. muahahahz.. ey. but celest is more far off lah. she's chioer. hahahaz....kk...shall stop...so......
awaiting for tmr... for u.....
taizi's so sacrificing...tt's e nicest thing a guy can do for a gal he likes in dis world.....dcf is kewl still....n ...gao xing is e ideal bf i wud wan to haf...dunno aso..ppl tink i mad. haha.. but diff preferance mah each person....he's e type hu dun seem to care much for his gf one..but hor..he's one tt care more den anione else type. i love it. smmore..he's so bickery.. my fave type. hahaahz...juz like wk hor? kidding...but gaoxing is realli cute.......can't stand! veri suit barbie. she veri chio....tt's bout all....i'm so thirsty. go get a drink...cyaz
da nian chu yi...
so..went grandma's house..hmmz..as usual lah. everi yr aso e same siansation one. muahhahaz...me n my mother stone -___- wif each other's company. i juz can't stand my father's side ppl...1stly u haf my da bo family. yucks. 3 kids suc. thou dey r e eldest.. one's married...i bth all 3. the guy tink he so damn cool arh. dye hair. i mean. it realli yux. whole day carry branded stuff...pui. insult e name...eld sis ap one..bth her face...younger one got teh voice! omg* the others ok lah..oh man.. dis yr my 4th uncle forgot gif me angbao....*sobz...n my grandma got senile liew..gif so little....how to buy discman liddat?! arrgh. oh...cny ..y m i bitching here. hha....heck...can see candice got e -__- face sitting at beside her mum..wanted to tok to her but dunno wad to say.lolx...den my 2 cousins kelvin edwin...edwin grown much better looker..but his brother more n more gay.. to tink her mom's fren MARGERAT still say he shuai man... *pengz. haha..both of dem quite nice to tok to..tok abit onli lorz...yepz....nth much..but was realli pissed wif my father yest.. i mean. nth special lah. everi yr he always liddat one. i mean.... can't u even leave some of my self esteem..nvm..dun wish to bring it up animore. i realli juz feel like crying.. i've juz nv seen ani normal parents( tt hu love their child) do dis kinda ting in front of others one..haiz....kinda siam e place at 7...YEAH! tt's e best thing of e day... i'm mean ar? oh ya...received quite a few sms-es... marchy was rotting juz like me..hahhaz...he noe bout e dcf n taizi ting.. he say gor looks like wang ren fu! omg.. so disgusting...hahaz...den ber msg..but i din reply...he's at home..tt worm aso rotting at home..hahaz... all i nv reply...save sms...den its quite surprising to receive His sms....cny eve aso...i mean... its so rare tt he take e initiative to msg me...juz as i was bout to let go of everithing n here he's doing all dis....wad does he wan actuallY? hmmz...asking how's my day...saying tt he will b bored.....n lastly..ask me go out...wad new yr date wad crap....i was happy at one end...but.... confused...coz i realli dun wana mistake anithing he say...dun tink too much lahz....after i reached home...there's another sms saying.....muz leave mon for him....reserve for him....ey...can he stop tt? haiz...juz as i was about e leave e junction n juz choose e remote path n here e green man lighted n dash a pushing force on me....suan le..ltr going out...hope today wun b as bored as yest. thou i noe its bout e same..coz today all got siblings partner one. onli me extra. further i nv mingle wif dem....
cny eve...
gong xi fa cai! hmmz...toopid rain seem to dampen e new yr spirit...tt's wad marchy says...lolx...hmmz...yup...had reunion dinner juz now...*yum...quite sianz now..watching tv....yeapz..n chatting online. sorri hor despo kia...today nv pei u go bugis...coz i realli late liew.. when i reach home father at home liew..-__- hmmz...nvm... u wun blame such a ke ai gal rite. lolxtaizi got hP! xiao xian zi help me get...den now he aso say he got...=) xian zi says he's nicer den dcf...hmmmmmmmm.......tt's wad i tink so too!today watched onli one disc of mvp...gaoxing so cuTE!!!! aHH!!*melt.....taizi quite ke lian aso..haiz.....xiao xi is like...onli like dcf...dunno treat taizi as wad now.......haiz.....dey reached dunman at 11 today...but i was already gone ma...as wad tt ad says.. hc onli say tt juz now..sms-ing...hmprh... den sch still got ppl meh? gess teachers also siam liew rite...finally new yr..i hope... i will get my feelings sort out too...n aso...urs...=)
yest forgot write entry..hmmz... so now dun realli remember wad i wana type liew.. got alot one lorz...ah..yay..i'm kinda lame lah.. link e mvp ppl wif sch guyz..hahah..but seriously speaking brandon is identical wif tt gao xing! juz smaller size only..hahahh.. i told jm he looks like taizi..he say ppl say he look like dCf! muahahz...
finally our band notice board looks decent..hahahz...e gals put in alot of effort.can see...hope we can win..but i tink e writings i added on spoil it totally.... =( musketeers agreed tt fat shit sux n we r all bs him. hahaz.had e tok wif tong in auditorium...tth sick. lolx...ah well.. went tm after tt....yeah.. i finally saw alvin!!! omg. he's so tall.. not realli lah.. but its so diff from wad i last see him in p6... after so mani yrs i finally met up wif him...yoz brother...i miss u... how i wish i'm in anglican u noe bro.haiz. forget it...so walked around wif ade...bot frenship bands...wrist band!!fingerbands! haha.. lwwo sec 4s gonna haf e fingerbands. i shall leave it for vday gift. lolx....damn ex lorz. arrgh. nvm... i buy for a few ppl onli mah. hahaz. kw dun need lahz. rite? so close liew. hahaha.bot shaoying's pressie too....16.30...hmmz. bot a small normal sized card. add paper inside lorz. big one damn er.....oh ya. saw fish at tm. hahaz...ass lorz. pull my hair. haha.. saw alot of ppl..wing tong wif him mum....4 yrs nv tok to him... he recognise me anot? waiting for mrt...saw him getting up escalator...staring at him..he stare at me...i wanted to smile back..but hor. he like no expression. i tink he muz b tinking dis woman so familiar but forgot hu m i. haha... maybe if i wif alvin or smthing he will recognise .....nvm...he's grown kewler. hahaz...tmr cny eve...dun realli feel excited. wanted to do so mani things.. but den. forget it lahz. =( maths test was rather fine... hope no failing for me lorz. yeah...n ya..purple suc too. petty old woman. i mean. both of us did nth wrong to her. i mean.. rite from e start i dun tink we r even 1% at fault. forget it man....y shud we care so much bout others.
mvp *touched
finally saw eug's new hair cut...well..not so bad as wad ppl say wad... isn't it still e same... i tink its lookz quite nice on him lehz... =p realli! like marine officer..or army officer. sud rite. lolx 4i ppl came to our klaz borrow geog txbks..hahahz.. so mani.. ard 7 hor..hmmz... giap got mine....=) yeah.today after sch i qiong home...hhehz.. den yh father fetch me to paya lebar mrt...damn earli tt time...hahaz.. oh ya.. b4 i left.. smone called my name mani times..haahz... den i turn back... its tjm...hehez....he was niaoingly asking if i'm heading to tm again... say i dun go liew lah... realli damn sianz... so happy he wud tok to me....coz we aren't tt close rite....=) got home watched a bit of mvp while eating mac...ah...my urge of buying tt discman is so strong....y can't i get it now... i kan zhong one.... 169 bucks.. .damn nice n sud one...hope i get tt.... =) yes. oh yar...when i was reaching bedok ber msg me....asking wad was i doing.. so chatted wif him a while...he was waiting for those green view ppl finish assembly b4 their tournament can commence....all e best!!!! jia you tong zhi~ =)barbie isn't tt bad afterall...w/o those pink clothings lah. hahahz...she's cute! n much chioer den angel...n oh man.. tony rulz...he SOOOO damn nice again....n he smile darn sweet..oh gwad...can melt.....
i'm gifing myself a deadline..by tt veri day...i will noe whether i shud let u go...n lead our own lives...haiz..n i gess tt person still likes jy...sad huh? lolx.. dunno lah.. not realli my prob lahz..he's juz my crush....n i dun tink anithing will get out of it....i'm trying to get a new start for e coming new yr..maybe by next wk.... i can proudly announce.... the one tt i wana like for e rest of the yr....coz u noe.. liking u is such a painful thing.....n even if one day u reciprocrate back...i wun go beyond wad we r now either.....as wad tjm told me... rather to b dishearted den to b heartbroken...
n he's making me falling for him once again.........things r getting complicated..sheng..dun make me feel guilty tt i nv reciprocrate....but i tink u n her will get on well...n u'll always b e fren tt i luv....i still remember dis....u can love a fren so much... but u can nv make him b ur partner coz the love can nv cross e boundary tt is meant for ur destinied one. n i believe so.....i've already commit dis grave mistake by letting it cross e boundary for miles... noe its hard to get it back.... so i juz had to let it go.....coz i believe one day it will b gone wif e wind...
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ah well..ask him if i cud get the o level eng 10 yr series from him...yeh..den he told me juz now he dig veri long in his storeroom b4 gettin it..hahah.. realli thx man. =) sorri for creating dis trouble too.... after sch tt scanda kw was toking 2 de disgusting dom©ø. ah well.. u like cong..fish.. still can say dey abit nice. but i dun see anithing wonderful bout tt sickening piece of shit. he suc totally. n to tink u actualli like him b4. oh man. -___- do i noe u?! see u so engross. i siam b4 telling u....went tm...haha. met jm. he's e one hu called mE! lolx....he veri nice lorz... if it was eug he siam dunno where arh. or even dao me...geez... he's juz like tcs.. tt day in sch he aso smiled at me....hmrph...den i tok alot of crap online wif him.. he say i sick. coz everitime we always met at tm.. den he say i obsessed wif tm.. hahahz...yeap... den he's online too... den tok quite smtime...he's doing work....hmm....n tim came on. hahahz... swo stil no bsn yet...i was tinking.... shud i join.. n... can i join. hahaz. depends lah.. if mr ng got ask me.... n if i'm e 1st to join. hahahaz. veri ap hor....geez....but its still a long way...tony rulz... watched mvp again...he's so bloody nice... how nice if i haf such a bf...? haiz. but dis kinda person dun exist.... rare lorz.... i mean.. gd looks n.. such flawless character..... tt barbie damn yux arh... PINK! hahahz. gross out totally.....oh yea.. siok's shoes damn nice...yh bot... susan aso wana buy..hahaz. but me poor kia. cannot afford.... can onli "wang4 mei2 zhi2 ke3"¡£¡£
yr end trip.
trip to hk... duno whether i'm allowed to go....i mean...dey confirm wun let me go overseas wif sch one....but well.. dis time round no norway..no finland..is hk.. got a gleam of hope tt i wud b able to go.... part of my home rite? dunno lahz... told my mum bout it...no violent objection... but father sure got one....n....wong say muz write "confirmation" letter..hahahaz... den dunno whether can anot lorz.. coz sure dey wana see results 1st rite...n my financial status..dunno lahz.... u noe everi beginning of yr... form teacher will ask u double check ur particulars.... over the yrs... i nv change anithing..... 1stly is i dunno wad shud i put.... 2nd is.. i dun dare.... in dis kinda society. its such a mockery to b poor k... though mani ppl out there r... but ppl around me mostly r loaded.. if not.. kinda well off type.... watched mvp juz now...it realli made me weep...coz its so similar to my situation in e past....haiz...but at least xiao xi is so xing fu.... tai zi is always there for her..... wad bout me... when i'm sad... hu noes...there wun b ani shoulder like taizi's for me to lean on..... n one hu's so devoted to her all e while.... i dun.....maybe i do haf.... but i nv treasured them....love can't b forced. can dey?-sigh- how i wish i'm out of ur pit now u noe...haiz..... ur eyes... ur words... still deeply engraved in my heart.....
quite true lorz...not exactly though
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hmmz..tt's wad he call me too? haha
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can't stand jocelyn animore. ros. come back n save me..... i miss u...c.....
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aH! so much things to say... so mani days nv update! oh man..... fri clarinets sp room in 4i... n eug's in lorz. totally melt * kw ran down to find me go up n i saw him.... ah.. so damn e cute n shuai.....hahah... 2 days nv come lorz he.. sick leh.. so ke lian....but come back he become kewler shuaier cuter. *melt!!!! tim fish hc came back...on fri n sat~~ hehez..haiz... i onli got smile to tim.. lolx... fish is he got tt sicko smile den i smile back.. him leh...ey. i nv look at him for even a glance.. i mean when he's watching lah... but i did peep. heheehz.... yepz... den get off 158 bus tim shouted bye to me.. followed by jessie... i din turn back... coz i was kinda sad mah.. he daoed me leh.... but sms him later.. felt better...den today i was taking mah... dey came...from far i see dem but i gek nv see of coz.. when dey came.. again tim walked first den i nodded at him onli. hah. den din turn back animore....yepz.. den after dey left... he din turn back either.... but i was looking as he slowly left... n he suddenly turn back n i turn away.... so he turn back again.....haiz....jes sick.. fever .. n everithing.. eyes was teary n red.. so poor thing... haiz.. tim so concerned bout her.. but she abit bohchup him in sch.. made him veri sad... so ask me take care of her.... still muz buy liang cha for her to drink.. heheh.. den realise watermelon cannot buy for her.. coz sick shudn't eat tt i tink. tt's wad my mom always say. lolx...yeah.. n i tok a bit wif her lah.. she was always scare tim angry wif her.... but i tink dey r fine now! so sweet.. tim came back to find her after band.....=)fish say he heard lotsa rumours bout me n him... but i deny hahaha......=p sec 1s got cute ones.. n alot of china pok faces. damn lah. i dun wan in bsn hor. *pray hard..... xy take squad abit e farnie you mei you....wad else....? yeah.. juz return from tm.. bot nth..hahaz... juz showed e slippers i wan to my mum.. she say ok .. but can't buy.. coz i wear shoe wear socks so mah fan.. so buy another day myself.. den go buy another set of clothes myself.....hehee....wa lau.. damn lahz.... i'm being questioned alot of stuff..haha. but i'm denying it all..... he din say aso ma. y shud i leh. hehe
great lorz
i dunno wad's guosh's prob. he's been daoing me since dec. wah lau. he realli determination to forget me issit. lolx. i mean.. muz b steads meh. frenz cannot issit. bth. haha. dun tok dun tok lor. i dun realli care. juz tt i tink its so childish of him.
fake...
nobody will noe wad my current feeling is now... i'm actually sad.. haiz.. but i still like so happy.. so hyper... y..... i mean... so far onli one person noe my dis habit.. wheneva i'm sad... i'll endulge myself in laughters... n stuff.... to help me get rid of the pain.. hafing mixed feelings now. but dun tink i will type it out lahz.. dun even noe if anione is reading dis lorz. so play safe.. still keep it to myself....copying out e mahler score. dun tink i can finish..n if so.... tink sat i'll use back e score lorz. haha. waste time man....he's bz...haiz.how i wish....time can turn back....if back to sec 1... i will treasure wk... if sec 2... i will be true to myself... i'll juz admit i like jm... or ltr part i'll admit i like eug...if not i wun b suffering here....sorry ad...y..s..
nice nick `
Confucius advocated Benevolence and Mencius, Righteousness (-_-|||) onli cute ppl like eug got such unique ke ai nick
cute eug
got kb-ed e moment i went home for my sms bill... overshot by half lorz... 735 sms.. wah lau.. i dun tink i got use so much!!arrgh..haiz.... stayed back today waited for.. smbody to go out wif me after sp to buy things...forgot yh got tuition.. den still got kw.... yeap.. den 3+ i see my fone. damn it!! he msged me lorz.. n i didn't notice it... it was sent at 12.46!!! asking me when sch ending... den meet him for lunch!! haiz....n i'm such an ass to read it so late! dis is like e 1st time 1st chance n i din treasure it n juz let it fly pass me..... juz liddat. feel like killing myself the 37¡ãpink bag sold out lorz. even black is out too... onli left disgusting green.. !!! sobz. i wan lorz... bot the mvp soundtrack...n the chun dao ren jian cd today... left f4 fantasy!!.. shall buy it soon! i still wana necklace....but its 30 bucks. so ex...still got ade es yh zx present...watched hero today.... damn nice... i bet e others tink its so damn boring. haha. my type of movie. i like it alot.. den maggie hsiu so bloody chio.... zhang zi yi can't b compared to her inside!! n she's aso chao extra inside.... tony leung damn shuai inside e show... jet lee like shit.... den the background n sound effect damn nice.... nice fighting scene.. veri perfect....today in sch.... still quite ok lorz... hehez.... eugene again look damn cute n more shuai today.. so cute one he.... nv wear pants whole day.... he's in pe shorts all e while...!!! lolx... den when dey return from com lab i din see him!! kitty saw him wif wk cs blah blah but i onli see the others but him! so damn upset. haha.. den went out tt time i turn.... OMG!! he's at his locker there n i was like staring for quite long i realli nv see him there.. again i cock eye i noe.. i was seeing where was yh.. den when i like staring enough for a few minutes.. i realise he's there!! n smmore he was staring back!! muahahahz..... den i quickly run into the klaz den come out yh there liew..... n he still there.. n i continue oogling.... hahaz.. den when 4i go com lab tt time.. char tell me den i look so long.... den i tink the guyz noe lorz.. den gz ask him turn back..... so cute...
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ch went to play golf. so funny lorz he.. hit a guy!!! oh man.. toking to so mani ppl now. bu she de get offline. marchy damn cute... go pangsai he say wait a while.. i go poo. lolx.. yh so gek by ch... bet she will boom man. hahaahz... coz ch always copy wad yh do.
cooling day....
slept at 11+ last nite.. ey.. hu did i chatted wif? shit man. haha. i senile liew. can't remember.. onli remember one is yongsheng.. oh.. den woke up at 10 today... late huh? raining so heavily...sky so dark.. i keep tinking its still earli so i wake up den sleep again mah....yepz.. den ate lunch n went online...tok wif ys again..hahaz..n sh... crapology everiwhere... ys.. hahaz....he say jy say i look like kelly.. -__- oh man. y is everione saying tt... since pri sch till now... but i tink its so diff?! realli.... n we tok alot of rubbish lahz... even tok bout how shud i do to my hair... ah beng ah lian or wadeva.. he keep saying i veri lian. =( yupz.. den did hw e whole day... now left geog.. hmmz.. wana buy some stuff.. but tmr whole world hafing sp.. go alone?? so sianz.. n my tuning chart hafen do.. thot of doing tmr. but... ghost do for me arh. hahaahz... coz cannot ga jiao ppl's sp wad..... =( dotdotdot... sh wana take pics of e guyz tmr....*melt.. hahaahz... oh yar.... eug wear damn beng clothes! hahaahh.. i was rite!!! geeez....
aroused liew. haha
ah! i nearly melted on e mrt n on my way back...!!! gess wad.. i went tampines eat wif mother.. den went home tt time.. i was sitting.. den i suddenly turn n i saw tt pasir ris seh kia.. acs one!! lolx...his face so red. so cute. hahahz.. den he was walking towards my direction... n i m oogling lorz. hahahz.. den get off the train rite.. he was a few ppl in front of me..haha. he saw me too.... den when he went down the escalator..he turn back n look lorz!!!! hahaahz.. i realli bua tahan!!! haah. when get down e escalator rite.. he sms-ing.. den walk so slowly.. den me n my mother catch up wif him.... den when he got out.. den walked in opposite direction liew...lolx.. den he turn the my direction n look...!!! haahhaz.. juz turn his eye balls onli.. but i can see coz i was observing him all e while. ehehehez....den i drag my mother walk his direction.. but too bad he walk to another bus stop.. sobz.. but before he turn he look back again!! *melt in sch saw eug aso can melt. coz his actions damn cute...lolx..ya... had band... tutorial...mr liu veri tired...can see aso.. den last hr he shacking lorz.. hope mr ng nv see.. if not i die....den i chat alot wif him again....muahhahaz....oh yar.. ros n frenz back today... tok alot...she's in squash man. can't blieve...n she has a new crush call wad С¶Çëî¡£peng man... oh yar.. ade is too much...hai. i'm not totally against wad she complain n scold. but is juz tt.. her attitude herself isnt' rite. how she expect others to respect n listen? sat she nv clean anithing either from wad i see... n she always find little things wrong or correct aso scold twain n cc..i mean. she's juz prejudiced. nth i can say either....coz so mani our squad ppl r for her...i hate dis com thoroughly besides yh. i can't realli stand nua aso....oh yar.. saw daorong n ppl at tt bubble tea house juz now.... den i sit facing dem -__- so awkward... dey keep staring.hahah...den i keep staring at my mother...den we go tt challenger building.. go in i get a shock man... saw dem again....-__- scully thot i follow dem....m uahahhz.. den when i went down the escalator... saw dem again... dey went out liew dunno still turn back for wad....... argh. n juz can't get use to ppl keep staring at me...wah lau.... still remember how last time dey niao daorong bout me lorz.. pls man..... dey was saying i like daorong?!?! oh man..den tt time i on 158 bus dey walking towards 30 bus stop.... the yan zhang gang was like screaming outside coz dey see me on it.. den keep ga jiaoing daorong... -__- peng! we dun even noe each other in e 1st place.. all kw's fault lahz. whole day look at the yanzhang f4 ppl. hai wo kana..... n dey thot i like vincent aso. muahhaz. but vincent got bcome nicer looking.
daorong not so gd liew. hahatoking wif alot of ppl juz now.. but i dao 90% of dem coz i wana concentrate.. so onli toking to kw n wk..tim left liew aso....got kb-ed by mother. damn pissed. haiz.
life suc
yeah man
last nite initially wanted to study maths one... den itch handed came online..hahah.. but he's online. =) wished him happy belated bday coz i so dumb mix up his n jac's one.. ya.. den chat for a while...so nice... veri long nv tok to him liew... yue kan eug yue seh...haha.. dunno y aso. juz find him cute... yupz...hehez.... i juz feel so funny wheneva i see him.... so tt's a crush lahz? =) during eng lesson we damn crappy.. gess i'm e one hu started it lorz... kit zz char kw..n me...hahah.. toking bout guyz.. gess alisa bth lorz. lolx...but veri fun.. gif alot of names....geez....nicest name is still guo zhen bang!ade keep shouting at t n Cc... hai.. i can't say anithing lorz... all i can is.. warn n tok wif dem "underhanded" haiz.. dunno y dey so prejudice against the sec 2 guyz...even their own section seniors hate dem..haiz. juz bcoz dey r hardworking...n... gd? dunno lahz... shan tok too much. dun wana offend own squad mates.i juz can't stand joce animore......i nv look at her during sp or wadeva one. ahahz...juz bua tahan her. went suntec after tt... kw cudn't meet us... rebonding her hair.. den sue n ade go buy pencil case. damn salesgirl. the 3 of dem r staring at us as if we gona steal their things liddat. n maybe we taking too long time...the teacher is rite lorz... in japan those salesgirl wun b liddat one. spore juz suc at service. the bright pink one i like alot.. but dey say the lighter one nicer..haiz.. 39.9... i wan so much.. can't afford... juz haf to save up.. yupz.. there r mani other colours aso....oh yar...on e way to suntec. gess wad. in sch rite.. saw eug still in sch.. =) geez...den he went bus stop wif ch n ppl... i was *peeping at him. hahahaz...he realli veri..woohoo. can't stand....den got on 158. pengz man. he sit facing me... muahahz.. ch aso..kw.. jealous? he damn act shy act cute.. haha. i look at him he turn away like shy little gal. hahaah.. den eug so cute when he tok on e fone. but damn lah. get off at 30 bus stop man..............sobz. wana cry liew.still hafen wrap his present.... gona do it soon man...i tink 4k is getting nicer.. starting to love dem!
last nite initially wanted to study maths one... den itch handed came online..hahah.. but he's online. =) wished him happy belated bday coz i so dumb mix up his n jac's one.. ya.. den chat for a while...so nice... veri long nv tok to him liew...
yue kan eug yue seh...haha.. dunno y aso. juz find him cute... yupz...hehez.... i juz feel so funny wheneva i see him.... so tt's a crush lahz? =) during eng lesson we damn crappy.. gess i'm e one hu started it lorz... kit zz char kw..n me...hahah.. toking bout guyz.. gess alisa bth lorz. lolx...but veri fun.. gif alot of names....geez....nicest name is still guo zhen bang!ade keep shouting at t n Cc... hai.. i can't say anithing lorz... all i can is.. warn n tok wif dem "underhanded" haiz.. dunno y dey so prejudice against the sec 2 guyz...even their own section seniors hate dem..haiz. juz bcoz dey r hardworking...n... gd? dunno lahz... shan tok too much. dun wana offend own squad mates.i juz can't stand joce animore......i nv look at her during sp or wadeva one. ahahz...juz bua tahan her. went suntec after tt... kw cudn't meet us... rebonding her hair.. den sue n ade go buy pencil case. damn salesgirl. the 3 of dem r staring at us as if we gona steal their things liddat. n maybe we taking too long time...the teacher is rite lorz... in japan those salesgirl wun b liddat one. spore juz suc at service. the bright pink one i like alot.. but dey say the lighter one nicer..haiz.. 39.9... i wan so much.. can't afford... juz haf to save up.. yupz.. there r mani other colours aso....oh yar...on e way to suntec. gess wad. in sch rite.. saw eug still in sch.. =) geez...den he went bus stop wif ch n ppl... i was *peeping at him. hahahaz...he realli veri..woohoo. can't stand....den got on 158. pengz man. he sit facing me... muahahz.. ch aso..kw.. jealous? he damn act shy act cute.. haha. i look at him he turn away like shy little gal. hahaah.. den eug so cute when he tok on e fone. but damn lah. get off at 30 bus stop man..............sobz. wana cry liew.still hafen wrap his present.... gona do it soon man...i tink 4k is getting nicer.. starting to love dem!
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so happy!!! eug msg mE 1st!!!! hahaz...veri long time since he initiate to msg me.. it was long since sec 2.. hehez. so i veri excited now.
laMo~
wha BiANg. disguSting fellOw bowEn bAnd guy. yUx. jUZ tOk a few wOrds say waNa meEt.. den say wad intro personaLs. cHey i thot wad. yuc man him. asK thOse perVertIc qNs like b sizE n stUff... *peNGz celebrate qing's n sy's bday...got qing a me to u bear in a box.. so nice rite.. n 2 nice nice hp accessories.. i choose onE! =) but still had to chip in own $.. toopid wilfred lahz. haiz...walk round whole parco..dunno wad to buy for him.. leather wallet i can't afford. so juz pick e nicest bilabong wallet!!! 28 bucks.. i tink veri nice. hahhaz...haiz. but dunno how to gif him....aso spotted alot of gift ideas for ppl!! marcus huiping hun ning shaoying one coming!!! the present angel gonna do her shopping again!! oh man.. eug rox lorz.. he realli darn cute. hahahaz..... his actions so kiddo... so nice body aso. perfect guy. =) best is his voice...the type i like most... takashi sorimachi voice !!! WAH! gonna melt. hehehez... haiz.. but nv tok to him.... =( it sux. its been days he msg me or wadeva. i can't b bothered to msg him either.. y shud i....ltr make him tink i'm irritating...or worse still tink i'm desperate....haiz...u juz made me so happy at times.. n upset at other times....haiz..but the fact is i missed u lots....gongky arh.. u dun whole day so sad lehz...cheer up!! dun always tink no one care for u lorz. dey dun... i do. u shud noe! hahaahz. i'm such a nice gal rite.....muahahahz....yupz... n stop whole day saying wad i reject u or wadeva. hahaz not my fault. is u not sincere.... n duh... =) thrash everithing out wif yc tt day... after got offline we sms abit... wad i can say is. i'm feeling differently from others.. u shud noe y.... but... its juz depression n so on. siao ding dong pam still angry... make her e more un- standable. hahaaz... yahz.. still as man bu jiang li n ignorant of other feelings...but its so fun sitting wif kw. hahaz. dun feel sleepy most of the time. gess i'm getting too hyper .. over eug? haahz. but.... dis crush last me for so long.... wonder if i'm liking him or crushing on him.
updates...
hmmz..ya..quite long din update entry liew... oh well.. dey came back on friday.. those tj ppl... he was there too.. wif tim adol n frenz...i din wana look at dem.. n nv admit tt i saw him.....dunno y.. juz.. dun tink there's a need.yar..n dis bitch is back.. i mean..nobody misses u..u come back for wad. attract who's attention. still wear wad tkgs uniform...well. juz to tell u. it sux.(on u) u tink veri cute arh. i pui. wana wear still go round running say dun wan ppl see u. pls lorz. like anibody wan liddat. see liew get sore eye cock eyesp was rather interesting nowadays.. no scores no stands...den sat even combine wif clarinets..hahaz.. den mr ng walked past... so scared he scold.. but he juz came in n ask me to call the saxes to join us... -_- oh man...bet she's chao buay song lorz...muhahahaz....celebrating mr ng's birthday during lunch time... quite nice lah .. those food prepared.. thou the jelly is chao nuah.. but still nice. hahahz... n kw shouted at randall n yc. Oh yeA! indoor in the noon...quite nice... erm...pf's strap snapped.. den i let her use mine for tales of the sea...oh man..its realli heavy...i mean... those middle F tt type of notes i can't play...*lol. the prez is always so noble!!!got a few sightreading pieces...salvonic dances sorcerer's suite...n great russia was damn jialat.. so sia suay...din noe tt part was so exposed...den i play until 3rd play cannot liew.. so chim!! smmore so fast lorz...haiz..den he say dun play for rhythm....=( but its nice.... haiz.... dun tink i'll haf e chance to even smell the piece liew....haiz.... got nice nice solos behind!! haahahz... hope if next time he play pf play the solo.i was so irritated during indoor. how much i wanted to juz turn n shout at joce. i mean... can she play nicer anot. i say dunno how mani times liew... dun play so loud... u r juz sticking out like a big sore thumb. it juz suc...n... dun keep swelling the notes... well..but i managed to REN. but i din look at her throughout the indoor.....n one thing. can she stop her bian tai actions anot. ARRGH. she's driving me crazy. can u juz stop staring at me wif those kinda sicko eyes anot. wah lau. ros!!! help me... no wonder u felt a sense of relief to leave us. hahaahz.....still wish me "gd luck"....=(1st time he msged me last nite....he said he heard i wasn't happy on fri...so ask if i was alrite now...hmmrphz how did he noe.. hu told him? ah. so obvious.... its tt big mouth idiot...yar..he's still outside eating dinner after a game of soccer...n damn lahz... i dozed off while msging him... n its onli 9 i tink....haiz...fated i gess...he din reply...haiz.... n he keep asking me wad's making me so upset.....gotta buy jh's present....n ee suan... adeline...n his.. which is coming in....4 days. haiz...still pondering whether to buy...jh present muz buy abit more ex one. coz she's part of swo. hahahaz....aiyo kw. u play so damn loud lorz. u one person can cover the whole section!!! hahahaz. power lungs u haf... wad brand of lungs u got? sony panasonic??samsung?!?! hahaahz...
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hai... y r ppl in dis world so petty n unreasonable..dey dun own e world..the world dun owe u...pls..haiz.. others got their rights in wadeva dey wana do..i mean...get so pissed juz coz of such things....i shud b e one saying lorz. she's mine all along lorz. hahahaaz...wad right has u ppl say i snatch her away from u. ignorant asses. hahaz sat opposite wk for 2 days in e mrt liew...nv say hi to him.. he aso like dun wana look at me...haiz..getting drifted since last yr...missed pri sch days. so damn fun! haiz...he's getting more n more seh-er.hahahahz..quite shuai leh...n eugene's cute...lolx.had sp today..oh yar! juz remember i forgot mark attendance... well.. went home wif twain chenchung n randall.. we went mac to eat..darn funny... got zombie n mummy there... hahahz....laff until like shit...keep laffing like mad idiots there... wonder if the ppl r tinking we r sick. hahaz.... =) n dey keep niaoing me bout him. pls lorz. i hate him for god sake.physics darn hard...haiz.. die liew. i dun wana fail...regret for studying so last min again. haiz.....tim n ppl maybe coming back on sat~... hMmz.. will b quite nice i tink.... haiz... hoping to see u.. but how i wish u wun appear... (',' )confused..can't seem to forget u..n seem to get myself deeper day by day... nv was so tough liking smone....
spaztic!
no cute guyz today! boohoo.. hmmz.... yay.. was so hyper today.. keep saying hi to ys n mel.. n tt ass tink i wave to him. bhb. pui. i will nv look at him one. hahaz.... mr lu treated bk.. so nice..nice meeting we had..nicest teacher we got..yeay.. i look forward to those class outings gatherings n activities. i haf a feeling i gonna like 4k dis yr! =)maybe u r rite..its not too late to join in e klaz now...i lag behind last yr.. i'm catching up now rite?
official launching of "sWo" fAncluB
swo means sexy wormy organisation.. not sembawang wind orchestra..hahahz.. dun get it wrong! =)
aniway..went v8 n eat tt disgusting baked rice..muhahaz.. but worth it. saw another grp of kewl kewl guyz!!oh man.. esp one of dem is chao shuai n seh kia type lorz...i saw dem when we walked thru the electronic shop lahz..yeap..again i look at tt guy for quite some time n he looked back aso. muahahahaz. i'm getting more n more despo...yea... den inside v8.. i was sitting facing out.. oh man.. dey walked past!!! he kinda looked in den see me. hahahaahz. i saw him too... den i was like oogling. muhahaahz...n he so cute.. walk away liew still turn back n wave!!!! lolx...so cute..another seh kia in tampines...he was wif his grp of frenz sitting... oh man..reach tampines tt stop noticed him..he veri tanned.. dun smile one.. dao look. n i oogle again. hahahaz... inherited from kw. hahahaz...n seems like all cute guyz' uniform is white througout one!! =)ate wif kw wt linda yh during recess.... swO faNcLuB!!! hahaahz.. we adore him man. lolx. like real* he suc totally. can't stand him ani longer . he tink he so damn great tt everi gal like him liddat. pui arh. so disgusting n sexist. siam lahz u.yup..msged him when i was on 158 after sch.. he replied lorz.. so fast.. seldom wor.. he was listening to some university talks.. sch gonna prepare dem for it .. when dey hafen even like start jc life yet. lolx. such a kiasu world we r in~~ oh man.. den i send the faggots united msg tt i wana send to yh to him lorz.. hahaaz.. n i was like a mad woman laffing at myself in e mrt...damn lahz. hahahaz.....yepz.. den he say wad he got sixth sense.... he tink my mrt juz went passed his...hahaz..so cute...haiz.. he go sleep liew... he's still not recovered yet... take carez..!! still wondering if i shud get him a bday present...shud i? maybe not.. wonder how's the both idiots r now. hahaz... i seriously tink smthing bad is happening lorz... n aso ken n px.. so wad .. everibody around me is so unhappy. including me... yar.. dis morning px was on e train wif us.. but she keep siam-ing us. was it my fault? maybe.. coz make her feel awkward? haiz... aniway.. same train as wk today.. veri veri long nv tok to him liew. wonder how's he. he looks fine n radiant. hahaz... coz he's wif kitty?? lolx.... he's as kewl as eva.. man... but i dun tink i will fall for him again?? i'm not the type hu will like a person a second time i gess.....unless miracle do occur... but since i didn't tok to him for like 1 yr liew.. i dun tink i will..... coz i will onli like one person i noe.... not anihow go round liking dis one tt one... n claim tt person is mine like purple. hahaz. she sux lahz. tink she so great arh. wana do contact list. she monitress meh. wana keep locker key. she av rep meh. u r nothing dear. thick skin. u onli get kenny irritated... so sad.... *opps. i'm abit mean...??
got to queue so back now. feel so short behind...tall freaks behind me. hahaz. m i one too? lolx.. kitty 167.. but i seem to b taller den her as wad dey say... when i'm onli 165. peng. wad is my real height? hahaz.. i dun wana noe.. coz i everi yr i aso stand slanted when taking height. hahahz.. tt's e reason i tink! lolx...
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yup.. he's online...n one of the few times he said hi to me 1st.. haiz. but he's sick again?? y he always sick.. haiz... take care ok... coz u r the type tt will sick for veri long.. =( yes..kenny is teaching his brother maths. hahahahz. its so funny.. n he does lose temper one. hahahaz. i din noe tt yar.. reading geog now. juz wasted hrs tinking bout wad to write for eng. n onli juz realise tmr n wed no eng! damn lahz.
cute guyz
oh man.. sadz rite. fanghao can't b monitor coz of conduct...i mean we believe he will do a gd job lorz.. but haiz.. nvm.. kw is e monitress in replacement! =) once again gotta work wif her like sec 2.. hahah...will b fun.. yay.. so sec 4 life till now.. is not tt horrible as wad i thot of... but today eng grp discussion i look over... xy looked so left out lorz.. sitting at one corner den tt purple is like toking so happily wif others.. haiz...so sad to see her liddat. but i can't do anithing...she doesn't seem willing to tok to me.....n tt ass susan was like got frenz den dun gif a damn to her man... onli will appear concern at times onli...haizaniway back to my topic of the day. cute guyz. hahahaz.yes.. ok lahz.. so kinda waited wif randall for yc today den we went kallang n eat. though i kinda regret y i wait wif randall.. haha.. but quite fun lahz.. kallang mac got cute guy. guy onli. haha.. so we went there.. yeah.. enter there was dis bunch of chung cheng kias there.. nv notice lah.. juz went in find a seat den go buy food.. so i queue behind a CCHS gal..yah..the other queue got dis tanned tanned kewl kia.. not veri shuai but quite cute. haha...den i queue behind the gal he like stare at me... ya.hahahz.. so cute.. den he was smiling to himself.. den he kinda mumble smthing to e gal in front of me.. but duh. i haf sharp ears i can roughly hear wad he saying... he was there asking the gal if "the dhs gal behind u chio anot".. den the gal fake fake turn one circle n turn back n she nearly fell. muhahaz. i feel like laffing but i haf to pretend i nv hear anithing.ahahaz. it was so corni... den i heard the gal reply to the cute guy say... hahaz.. quite ok lahz.. but hor.. maybe taller den u hor. so sad. muahhaz.. den the guy was there smiling so sweet. lolxhey kw. dun say i bhb hor.. sorri arh. i'm juz recording my daily happenings...but i'm not like laura lahz hor.. aniway its meant for my own reading mah.. so u can dun look at it. hahaah. aniway u hear me brag i hear u brag always rite. lolxyeah.. so went back n sit down. i wasn't facing those cchs ppl.. so when we left... he was sitting wif the cchs guyz.. gals dunno siam till where.. den i somehow hear his frenz ask him go over take fone no. dun shy. lolx...hahahaz... den he was blushing.. but i left lahz.. aniway.. scully is not me. muhahaz.. nvm... i juz wana take note in dis entry tt i met a cute guy in mac!!!cute guy no. 2... yeah.. from ahs.. hahahaz... yes.. a bunch of ahs guy came up e mrt at tanah merah.. sec 4 i noe.. coz dis cute guy hazel my ex fren noe one.. hahah.. he's the one hu starred in "ping guo pai"(apple pie) where kym ng got act one.. he's the shuai one!! yeah.. he damn kewl n seh in real life.. i tink i see him twice liew.. maybe he find me familar aso.. coz he was wif my frenz last time when i walk over to hazel n alvin dey all.. yep.. den when he walk in i was like staring at him n he staring at me. hahahaz. like so farnie.. lolx... oh yeah.. den got off the train at pasir ris together. hahahz.. so i went buy vcd.. den went popular get a bk.. after i choose finish he suddenly appear.. haha. he got the shy shy cute look.. so i walk away.. hahah...look at smthing else.. i pay money at cashier... he walk into cd rama.. den after i pay i aso walk in n see see look look.!!! m i following him. muahahahz. scully he tink i despo den die sia.... woohoo. he stay there veri long... not looking at cds.. so i nv go out aso.. but after a while he siam out...n turn back !!! hahahaz... but i nv look at him... yeah... so i went home wif hyper feelings as i met 2 cute guyz in a day!! =)tim...pls dun get angry over her k.. i dun tink she mean it tt way.. juz tt she's quite confused too i gess....haiz.. maybe tt morning i shudn't haf msg u... den maybe she will haf a chance to tell u i gess... or maybe she wun tell u anithing... haiz.. dun worry lahz.. she needs time to kewl down i tink.... after a few days she will reply one.. so pls dun b angry.. i nv wan to see u 2 break animore...
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zw suddenly tok bout such weird stuff...wad ask if i wud like someone like him..aniway...he asking how me n him.. wad can i say? obviously nth rite.. where got wad improvement or wad...is nth one.. juz as normal.. gd frenz still. ~~ says:
u like him a lot rite?
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u will take initiative to talk to him
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to treat him nice
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to like make him, happy
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to like jio him
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reli think he will like u soon
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think hes probably confuse now and din noe what to do
i can't force him to like me rite.. tt's wad i tell him..n.. if things remain .. i'm happy aso.. coz i dun wana lose a fren like him...
zw ask me to b wad i m now... hmmz.. dunno.. i'm starting to get more n more depress.. like how lorz... haiz.. i realli miss him...
btw... yesterday jy initiate to tok to me.. yar we r fine now i gess...though he still hafen apologize.. but.. nvm lah. i not tt petty..he wan me n randall take bass drum next time.. coz sat accident almost happen.. tt yufan after kana reprimanded by randall. he volunteer to take bass drum... den randall siam when he wana take.. coz everibody scare of him. coz he always been a shacko. hahaz... n jy took wif him.. den jy keep telling me he has a bad feeling smthing will happen. realli lorz. *boom. the moment dey lift up the bass drum hit the wall. hahahaz... kenneth came over n take... yar.. b4 tt laura n huiwen wanted to take...i tink dey veri bu fu qi .. coz say i can take y can't dey... so insistant... not tt bass drum veri heavy.. but it will topple easily... better to carry wif someone steady...like randall.. kenneth aso dunno how to take one. i veri scare of him... hahahz... den laura was so pissed when randall chase her away..
tokin to px now...hey.. cheer up. dun brood over dis thing.. i mean dis time onli u can tok to him. there's nth i can do... coz...he dun realli say much.. n.. i dun realli trust him either. to me. i tink he doesn't wana get into trouble but yet wana b wif u.. tt's veri selfish...
rainy day
fell asleep last nite while watching tv...after i woke up e show ended liew.. n its already like past 1... hmmz..reply to his msg.. he's at e airport..well... he always seem not to b lack of company.. kinda envious.... aniway... its getting weirder toking to him... maybe the feeling is right..he getting a bit irritated n scared by me issit.haiz. dunno... tt nite i can't help but keep tinking bout himwoke up at 1030.. kinda late.. so skip breakfast since lunch is gonna b ready. yeay.. rice sia! so happy.. ate a big big plate of it... den here i m online..kenny's here..chat abit lorz...found out wad his hcjc orientation gonna last for 7 days.. 1st 2 days wad admin matter.. den wad jc orientation is known to b longest n funnest. hahah... crap..he's going out wif parents to buy new yr clothes.. so gd.. n here i'm stuck at home... ys's online too... i tink he gonna confess to jy sooner or later. ahaz... he's going for an audition on sunday... wad shanghai fashion fest.. so kewl lorz.. expenses all paid blah blah.. 70 models all around e world...so fun... juz gd luck to him... whether u get in anot is secondary rite? juz as long u try.. =) n wad lorz. he say i'm insensitive. hahahaz.. Gongky says:
anyway you also quite chio what
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character wise
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although abit insensitive
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abit dao
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but like an old building
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might have some rough edges
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but when you look closely
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is beautiful
wah lau. n he's cursing me... say wad i reject too mani ppl everibody scare of me.. wad shit lorz... hahaz.. i not attractive too bad lahz...aniway u can't accept anibody tt likes u rite. i'm not like tt ass. hahaz..juz to add. tt ass is getting more n more irritating.but gd luck to u n her.... she seem to like u lorz.. from wad u copy for me to see. =)
doing the roster now.. after dis will do jianbao n journal...
confUsEd~
suppose to meet dem n go eat at kallang.. but i was late lahz..yeah.. so i went aljunied alone..strange thing no one was on e train as me...*late i tink...yeah.. so i waited at e bus stop.. got some other sec 1s there lorz... bus 100 came lahz... seem to see kak on e bus... but din realli look.....den bus 62 came....double decked..so the exit is quite dark...but seem to see someone familiar at there... din realli go notice... but well.. its him.. yar.. juz say hi... i was hafing such mixed feelings at tt pt of time... heart was thumping fast yet... was so unwilling to see him.... dunno lahz... n e atmosphere was so weird..n seem to haf tension btw us... kinda awkward as to wad shud we say....he stood there for a short while..finally ask if i was late or earli... i aso dunno wad i saying.. juz anihow reply late.... yar.. den so... say bye.. n he left..... how much i wanted to tok to u longer....nvM... dun wish to spoil ur mood for the day too.... its ur orientation's last day rite.. camp fire nite....hope u enjoy. wanted to msg u.. but hesitated alot....i'm juz scare u wud find me irritating u noe...watch the jap band com on video dis morning... muz haf movements mah...den lingzi n cherlyn was like so lame.. laffing at everithing like big mountain tortoise. buay tahan lorz. feel like shouting at dem ask dem shudup coz dey keep toking non stop. veri pissed.play our set n choice piece for the sec 1s.. n stand by me.. oh yar. cds dance sux.. esp tt yc n lj dance damn er. pui. den we had indoor after dis..... quite fun...though i keep yawning.. abit e sianz... coz of weather lahz...after band went cheers n eat....n went later to challenger to buy colour ink...now i'm online. gonna do hw later! hope i will. hahaha
2nd day of sch
play for orientation. all sec 1s damn on n enthu one compared wif past batches. was kinda glad too.. yeah... me n yh play habanera n winter sonata..... well... things went on quite fine during sch....n i'm relli e secretary..ya... lotsa niaoings kana today. by my own squad lorz. hhahha. n there's dis green ladybird... so disgusting. keep revolving around my squad n me. yar.. tt's bout all for today. oh yar.. met pam dis morning.. she noe bout wad happen to me .....hmz.. n she told me bout herself too... hey.. dun tink so much k. =) tata
1st day of sch!
sec 4 liew! wha lau. veri old liew leh me... thot still young liddat. he came online last nite..yeah.. we tok.. for quite some time... told him stuff tt i nv tell anione b4... hmmz...my probs not realli settled lorz..but was still veri glad tt he still toks to me.. i'm juz afraid to lose a fren like him....sat wif khine wa today... pam n es in front.. again tt xiao petty woman got angry i tink coz i snatch her 2 frenz over..attitude probs ppl got so mani.. n stil got alisa.. wah lau ey. pam dun wan sit wif her. but she still insist. juz dump her bag on the table wif a *thump. n say. i dun care arh. i sitting here man. sick lorz.... hmmz..... yar..she came... haiz.. tt woman nv sit wif her as wad me n kw gessed. i noe she wun sit wif her one lorz at 1st. she onli will sit wif so call interesting ppl mah.... haiz.. i feel veri bad. but i noe she wun aso tok to me... she din go for recess either.. i gess is the face..coz she got no one to go wif. shud i ask her join me tmr.... i wonder...haiz.....yining still e chair..charissa n fanghao monitor!!! hahahaz... we vote for fanghao one.. yeapz... i almost kana monitress coz 2nd highest votings..but i dun wan.. wad muz lead n stuff... haha.. secretary better lorz. =p yar.. but still not fixed.. either treasurer secretary or spc...the damn sch gup my lock away !! shit dem.....
arrgh...orientation rehersal.. gonna play wizard of oz..spice gals..stand by me & amercian graf...yupz.. for the intro section one i playing wif yuhui.. at 1st play habanera..but kinda repetition..so i tink play winter sonata theme song.... muz b familar one.. den let sec 1 gess wad's tt song....jy damaged my newly bought reed lorz. i dunno take how long to save up for it.. 25 bucks k.. not even 2 wks old....n....one reed for me can last at least 4 mths one! n now... best lorz. waste money for a stupid reed tt can't even b used animore. n look at his stupid damn attitude. din even wana admit he's wrong n still diao me. wad his prob lorz. if he apologize i wun take it to heart lorz.. at least i noe he's not on purpose n is sincere. n here's wad i get. here i'm pissed enough coz i haf to pay 25bucks for nth.. n here i get f*** up face for nth when he's the one at faultmsg-ing him now... telling bout today's happenings....test on next fri for physics n 16th for amaths. shall study hard! =)
..::yeAr 2003:.
happy new yr.. yupz...had the last indoor for 2002... wif mr davis for the 80 syf ppl onli..yeah.. it was realli fun.. get to sit in big circles n in random.. yar.. farni one was while playing tales of the sea...someone suddenly tok behind me... gaf me a shock lorz.. it was mr ng..hahah.. he keep saying.. eileen... more character!!! more more more!! hahahaz... i keep giggling lorz den those idiots were like laffing at me... den he ran to joce n ask her look at me.. n again.. she turn n tried to smiled at me but..haha. i pretend i not looking in her direction! after stock taking went to eat swensons wif khinewa... such a long time since i spend private time wif her wor. hahaz... got fish n chips chicken baked rice merry mint chewy chocolate n coke. hahahz tt's our order... n each person pay like 20 bucks.... we tok alot.. yeah...tok everithing tt we can't tok to other ppl... yeapz.. our bond is back~ hmm.. pei her go popular buy books den i go home.... yeah.. practically my new yr eve was boring... watching countdown 2003 on tv alone.... while sms-ing ken n hc.... not in a realli gd mood too... haiz.... he dun seem to b veri free to sms me either ma.. he's occupied wif his activities... can't b even bothered aniway rite... but i realli miss him alot...hai* slept at round 3....went to suntec n eat kfc wif mum n went round shop shop to buy things.... dad wasn't round... both din tok for 1 day liew... hafen patch up since yesterday's quarrel... so dumb. i hate life... he replied only at round 630pm..coz he onli juz woke up... ya.. din realli tok much aso... he's slow in reply again as usual... n... i'm juz so... depressed... but.. hu will noe... n care for me.. haiz.. how i wish there's someone there for me.
tim juz went offline .. again.. i nv tell him my probs one... is always i listen to him.... i nv like to tell ppl bout my probs... i will onli noe how to help ppl solve their probs...but not tell others bout mine easily...u'r watching tv rite....enjoy.... actually i'm here juz to wait.. but... i noe its juz for an absolution...coz i noe u wun come.. even got..i wud haf left.... by ten....
yesh...sch starts tmr... xy...realli miss u... r u not tokin to me foreva.... haiz.... u'r my onli worry.... i dun wan u to b left out gal.. juz hope u will b happy.. den i'm contented.....
*winters tales*
had concert at vch last nite..woo...originally planned to end it at 9..hahah... but drag till 1030 lorz... 9 the swo was still playing..hafen even intermission... i tink we played well last nite~ yc played his best of all performances.. was rather surprised..coz he's already gd enough liew den last nite play even better...he's realli shen man..heheh...he can shen together wif jeffrey arh..heard from susan he can pitch the high G of mine tt i can reach even one octave higher!! oh man. tt means its like flute's middle G...wah seh.. kewl! =) bruckner sounds fine..kenneth played quite well too... for me... i tink was rather ok lorz...dun tink i'm tt out of tune at tt pt of time... except for some particular notes...yepx.. sym. no. 5 tt part i did it! yay.. was rather relieve... mani fun things happen aso... like laffing at niang niang's cornie reaction...n the bunny we gave mr ng.. so cute.. it was like realli alive... moving wif the music... smiling at ppl playing solo.. n leaning against mr ng trying to peer the con score..hahahz... but combine was rather squeezy tt i've to sit side ways.. was veri tired.. but enjoyed mysef~! though i hurt my arm dunno y aso.. but.. i'm strong. ahaz. not beaten juz like tt.. me not tt weak man~ yeaZ... swo dedicate jay's kai bu liao kou to us..arranged by hakim leh!! veri nice. liked the eupho solo best..heheh. jeff play one.. veri nice...swo played lotsa my fave songs...two symphonic movements..nice k... oboe n cor anglais duet was nice! cud aso hear thomas clear n loud! woo..hhahz.. marimba soloist was gd.. onli spot a few mistakes... the flute soloist veri nice...hehez.. out of tune aso sound nice. =) enough of the playing... dinner dis time round was gd. no chicken rice. yay man. hahaz. so happy..but i gave away the piece of chicken.. geez...vegeterian sia... yeah.. receive alot of presents.. i veri happy aso.. thx all of u.. big or small i aso like.. i like anithing tt ppl gif me... yay.. was rather upset when i saw him....i thot tt it wud dampen my mood the whole nite.. but. later i received his flowers.. i was so shocked... from kel n him.. veri veri happy... yupz..n tim gave me the cookie.. woo.. which kept me full for e nite.. i ate after i reached home.... yar..... like everithing veri much.... yea.. ended at 1030 as i've said.. got on e bus.... wasn't in a gd mood though.. well..saw him again.....veri upset... haiz.. but was rather cheered up abit wif those jokers sitting at e back.. singing songs all e way...hahahz... yeah.. n i donate out my food supply..~ hmm... juz to add... pam came..=) but she told me she n zq no more liew..haiz..... y liddat.... dun so sad k... ly came.. but i nv see.haha. i thot he nv come.... kenny din come!! hehez..went back to bandrm.. had to dig out the stuff from my bsn to keep..yeah.. alot.. den stuff all inside the yellow plastic bag..mrs wong chasing everione out..yeah.. yh left ... coz her family wait her for veri long....so i was supposedly to go home alone.. yeah.. got on 158 sit at e back... den the sec 1s came to join me... n yaqi sit in front of me.. the guyz were in front n jessica n px.. hmmz...when got off the bus.. i walked veri veri veri slow.... behind everione..... realli not in e mood.. dun wan to tok to anione. i'm tired.. mentally. not physically... yupzZ.... so everione went cheers..so i went up alone... jessica n px there aso... n peifang.... arh well.. den i received a call from tim... he hc zw at mac... ask me go down... at 1st he msg me i say i up there liew.. i aso lazi.. but after tt.. dunno y... the moment he called.. n i heard those ppl's voice getting nearer.. i ran down the stairs.. yah.. dunno wad made me go.. maybe coz he's there? yar.. tt toopid woman dun even wana let me in.. say closing liew.ahah.. but i say i looking for fren. she no choice wor... yeah..i din eat lahz... feel so awkward snatching food wif dem. onli gup tim's milo...at tt time its 1145...so late.. almost missed the mrt...hc n zw took bus.. me n tim take mrt...dey were like pushing each other to see me home coz dey made me go home even later! hahaz.. but nvm one lahz. i not so demanding... in e end i still take till tampines to take cab. tim looks so sleepy. muahahaz..if ask him go home wif me he sleep on e road liew. hahahz..so yeah.. was damn shocked.. n my heart was beating fast when he called. din expect it..yupz... tok for veri veri long....was realli veri happy...but i tink i neglect tim when i receive the call.. sorri hor...he looks rather sian... realli sorri...yeah.. we tok quite alot.. not much awkward silent pauses.. hehez...was realli happy tt u called. do u noe.... but i gess u dun. but i'm still glad ...... i onli put down the fone..when he say he was chasing after a damn bus..hahaz.... yeah.. i got home.. parents not asleep yet..
so i start my food spree.. n pack up presents up....i was up alone eating... den bathe... n.. i sneak online coz tim's there.... n chatted lorz.yeah...ly was there...n susan. but she left a while after.. juz like px....den realise the 2 of dem went sq's house... but zw was on msn all e while lorz.. tok a bit lahz... but i cudn't sleep.. kinda miss tt person....yar.. n i got offline at bout 230.. coz no more ppl onlin | 